How Aware are YOU of Your Surroundings???

So! Yesterday, on my day off, I decided to get some last minute christmas shopping in. It was freezing out(around -30celsius) so people were scurrying from their cars to the mall, trying to avoid the cold at all costs.

I was finished with my shopping at the mall and I was waiting at an exit for my dad to pick me up. There was sliding doors in the middle and two regualar sets of doors to either side of it. WELLLLLL, the sliding doors and one set of doors were out of order. They had HUGE OUT OF ORDER signs posted and everything. Since traffic was bad, I ended up waiting for my dad for about 45 minutes at the exit. MOST AMUSING 45MINUTES OF MY LIFE!!! The title of my post is "How aware are you of your surroundings?" After observing people and the issues they had with these doors, I've realized that people are VERY unaware.

The people entering and exiting were SO unaware that even though there was massive signs on the doors, they walked right in to them, fiddled with them, kicked and swore at the doors...I'd even pipe out "you need to go all the way down to the left." But NOOOO, they wouldn't listen at all, they'd just keep attempting to shove the doors open.

Although it was hilarious and if I had a camera, it probabl could have made its way to AFV, at the same time...I'm thinking about how dangerous it is not to be attentive. If you're not observant of your surroundings including scenery, people and other small things, you could find yourself in trouble. For example,if you keep in mind who you're surrounded by and someone makes a grab for your bags and gets away with them, by being aware of them, you could file a police report easier and give a better description.

PAY ATTENTION PEOPLE!!!

To My Avid Bookworms!!!

I know all of you read like it's oxygen, and I'm running out of books to read so please - give me lists of books that you love!!!
I wanna go on a book binge after christmas here and I'm not lieing when I say that I promise you, I am open to any genre, any book, any author.

If you guys are writing down your recommendations, I'd appreciate it if you could give me a little more info than "twilight" for example. It's nice to know who the author or the genre is or if it's a series...stuff like that.

Thanks all!!!

xo.Jess

Everything counts.

Life is everything
Love is everything
The goodness that you give to people and that people give to you in return...is EVERYTHING.

Never forget that, not for a second...never even hesitate at that thought...for it is absolute.

Countdown till I see Emily...and PRECON!!!

I just had to share with you all that I've bought my precon plane ticket today. Precon is NOT related to twicon in any way, shape or form other than the fact that twicon is how I met all of the people that I'm meetting at precon!!!

I'm ecstatic, beyond ecstatic. I'm going to see some of the people whom I've made a priority in my life lately.
-Emily
-Kaelie
-Sam(you're making the day trip)
-KP(you're making the day trip WITH Sam)
-Liz
-Danaaaaaa
-Ti
-Melchyyy
-B!
-Angie =)
-and Greg! Of course!

You guys are all important to me and I promise that if you meant anything less to me than you do now, I would have definitely NOT spent the 400CAD that it cost to fly down there. I love you all and I hope these next two months fly by!!!

I'll be arriving on wednesday and leaving the following wednesday... 8 DAYS WITH MY OTHER HALF!!! The anticipation is already too much!

Sam and KP, I really, really hope you gals can make it, I would love nothing more than to at least get the chance to say hi to you guys in person and give you an awesome hug!

KP!!!

So my good friend and fellow twilight addict like myself - KATIE(KP), has recently made her own site! I recommend taking a peek at it! It has Twilight and New Moon info as well as other fun stuff.

KP's site is easily accessible on the right hand side under "KP's site." LOL, simple enough I figure!

CHECK IT OUT!!!

KP's Site!!!
KP's Site!!!
KP's Site!!!

Dress Links!

So I've composed a list of websites to find dresses for all of my ladies going to Twicon!!! I've linked a few dress sites thus far and will add many more in the coming days!!!

I've also gave a description of each of the sites underneath the link.
Cheap - Dresses under $150
Moderate - Dresses priced from $150-300
Expensive - Dressed $300+


www.bestpromdresses.com
-Moderate to high
-plus size / cocktail / evening gown / ball gown / short
-shoes

www.beflirtydresses.com/
-High(due to the fact that they're priced in pounds)
-evening gown / ballgown / cocktail / plus size
-shoes / accessories

www.sungboutiquela.com/
-Cheap to Moderate
-evening gown / cocktail / prom gown / short / plus size
-purses

www.nexteve.com/
-Cheap to Moderate
-Ball gown / cocktail / plus size / evening gown

www.onlygowns.com
-Moderate to High
-Evening gowns / ball gowns / plus size / cocktail

www.ever-pretty.com/
-Cheap
-Cocktail / Evening gown

www.shopshop.com/
-Cheap to Moderate
-Evening gown / ball gown / short / plus size

www.simplydresses.com/
-Cheap to High
-Short / plus size / evening gown / ball gown
-Accesories / shoes

http://www.sydneyscloset.com
-Moderate to High
-All plus size dresses inc. ball gown, cocktail, etc.
-Accessories / shoes

www.edressme.com/
-Cheap to High
-Pluz size / cocktail / ball gown / petite
-Accessories

www.preciousformals.com/
-No price found
-Cocktail / evening gown / ball gown / short

www.calitoprom.com
-Moderate
-Plus size / evening gown

www.gownsbysimpleelegance.com/
-Moderate to High
-Ball gown / evening gown

www.lightinthebox.com
-Cheap to Moderate
-Evening gown / ball gown / cocktail /

www.dressesonline.com
-Cheap
-Evening gown / plus size / ball gown


I hope all of you find an amazing dress - AND, please feel free to leave a comment regarding any other dress sites you've stumbled upon! I want all the ladies to be able to have AS MANY dress options as possible!!!

I LOVE YOU ALL - MUAH

xo.Jess

Did I Bite Off More Than I Can Chew?

It's been forever since I really wrote about anything going on in my life...I guess I've re-directed my priorities(and not in a positive way) to say the least.

My first topic of conversation will be Twilight, Twicon and everything related to it. I feel like in the last month, it's consumed me. I just go through these phases where I focus all of my energy on one thing. I signed up to go to twicon last month. Twicon is a twilight convention(so nerdy, I know right?) down in Dallas, Tx that has lots of stars slated to attend as well as many other things going on. After I signed up, I started talking to other people that were attending through the forums and chatroom...Almost immedietely I have felt a sense of attachment to them which is weird, cause that NEVER happens!!! I can honestly say though that I've thoroughly enjoyed getting to know Emily, Kaelie, Dana, Katie-Poo, April, Sam, Kat, Melch, B, Ti, Liz and so many others!!!

With that being said, it leads in to my next topic which is the reason for my title! I've been talking to them so immensely this last month that I'm planning on going down with Brit to meet up with them and hang out... Not only was I under a constant worry of pressure from before trying to find the money for europe, but now I've added another two vacations on top of that. With all this worrying about finding the funds for it, I'm wondering if I've made the right choices...I can still back out of course, but I don't want to...and I know I'd feel worse off if I did. I just keep living by this motto that I want to do anything and everything and so be it - I shall do it! Apparently this motto might not work all the time...it seems to be getting me into some binds and I still feel unhappy with myself. If all goes well though this year *knock on wood* the vacations I'm going on are:

Banff: January 2-4 2009 (Not much of a vacation but whatevs)
Texas/Alabama: February 12-19 2009
Europe: April 27(ish)- June 10(ish) 2009
Twicon(Dallas, Tx): July 28th - August 4th 2009
Mexico/California: Sept 10-20 2009

And then I want to go back to Cali for the premier of New Moon and just to go back.

Ughhhhhh *whines a little* Why do I have to be so unhappy with my life that I'm constantly wanting everything? Not in the materialistic sense but I just want to DO and SEE and BE everything! I want to be in a million places at once...it's so dang frustrating!!! I also want to start making a new years resolution...except it's not so much as a resolution as it is just a list of things that I want to stop putting off...So far I figure my list will include the following:

-Save money and or take a second job
-Pay off credit card
-Lose the weight that I've been wanting to lose for forever
-Take dancing lessons
-Find a good monologue piece and start rehearsing
-Look into some sort of theatre workshops to get me back into the swing of things
-Establish ok-looking portfolio
-Research schools and make sure I figure out what I want to do with life
-Find my happiness with Alex or find a way to move on
-Get Blue cross or a job that has benefits so I can fix my stupid tooth
-Go to New York
-Go to the U.K.
-Finish writing my book that I've put off for way to long

Now I'll explain these in depth...Boring, I know!

I need to save money so that I can go to school or travel or have the freedom to do whatever I want on a whim.

I need to pay off my credit card because...well that's a given. I don't want bad credit.

Lose the weight I want to lose because sometime I feel like it holds me back from trying new things a.k.a...school...which I know it shouldn't...but when you're uncomfortable as not self-assured like I am, you get crazy notions in your head.

I don't want to be no ballerina or anything but I figured it I delved into dance a bit, I could round off my fine arts a bit more with dancing in my portfolio...it might make some things easier.

In order to apply for school for theatre arts, you must have a monologue prepared. I did Lady Macbeth in high school and although Shakespeare is impressive, I want something that conveys a wide range of emotions that I can use for other auditions and stuff.

My portfolio sucks period...and if I want to enjoy any happiness in acting, even if it's just local acting, I need something to present.

School...FUCK. That's all I can say. I have no idea WHERE I want to go or what I want to take. All I know is that I might need to do some upgrading AGAIN. I need to figure out what I want to do and stick with it. Theatre Arts was always on the top of the list but I've always convinced myself it'd be a waste of time and money. Maybe I could give it a shot, who knows. I also wouldn't mind exploring an English degree...I never think that about pursuing something with english, but my marks in English have always been there and I always forget that I enjoy it...A LOT! Sometimes I don't feel smart enough though...I'm afraid of failure. My last option and the one that I keep sticking with seems to be Social work/Child and Youth. I know I'd be happy in it and I know I'd get accepted easily but I feel like I should go further because I don't know if I'm as passionate about it as other things. Don't get me wrong, I've always wanted to work with kids, one way or another...but doing something like social working, which I hardly even agree with just seems like an easy way out. I just want to get a move on...Go to school and build a future.

Alex. Self explanitory. I love him, it's been over five years but we're in a rock and a hard place...I feel him slipping away from me everyday and although I I get gut wrenching sensations of loneliness when he's not around, sometimes it feels as though I'm better off this way.

Umm...so a job with benefits would be friggin sweet! I wouldn't have to pay an arm and a leg for my glasses, or the doctor or the stupid dentist...UGHHH

New York and the U.K... two places I've read dreamed about visiting for as long as I can remember. I wanna go..end of story.

My book is...well it's a book. I started writing it who knows how long ago because I wanted to prove to myself I could follow through on something. I told myself it wasn't to meant to be anything except my own personal accomplishment. I've wrote quite a bit of it but then I just put it down one day and didn't look at it again. I just remembered that I got this overwhelming sensation that "a person like me CAN'T write a book." I think I can, I think I just lack the determination sometimes.

And there is my list...yeesh!!!


What else to talk about...something happy?!?!?! I feel like I've bitched this entire entry.

So I just recently read a series called The Black Dagger Brotherhood series. It seriously stole my heart. It even took my mind off of twilight! I read the 6 books in about 8 days! It's a vampire romance novel...very erotic and exotic and not something I'd normally read, but it completely captured me! I did beat a personal record and read 16 books in the month of November...it impressed me. Currently I'm reading some Demon series...I don't really know. It's not too bad, I have one more book left to read so we shall see! Umm...what else??? Christmas is coming! I'm SO lacking the spirit this year...I think it's cause I'm not working in the mall this year so I haven't heard the christmas music all day and people gushing about christmas...tomorrow I'm gonna get a move on with the christmas shopping. Also...I need to clean my room(s)...and do laundry. I'm slacking MAJORLY!!!

I think that is all I have to report on for now!

Other than the fact that CG is indeed having a baby... =( My heart hurts!

xo. Jess

Con???

P.S.
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I'm going to Dallas, Texas at the end of July 2009!!!

You're all jealous. =)=)=)

<3<3<3

Be Safe!!!

TWILIGHT!!!

Last night I went to go see twilight with Nikki and Britt. Nikki and I got there pretty early and ended up waiting in line for over two hours. It was lame but so worth it! As always, the books are always better but I thought it was a good companion piece. I think they did a good job at matching the character in the book to the actor/actress. First half of the movie wasn't so good. Acting was a bit forced and the storyline was completely different than the book but nonetheless...it was AMAZING. Cam Gigandet...oh man! He made the movie, as always, he plays an awesome bad guy! I'm so excited to see the Unborn though which comes out January 9 2009. He FINALLY plays a good guy...I hope he doesn't die haha! I plan on going to see twilight at least...six more times in theatres! We'll see how that goes. I need to beat my current theatre record which is P.S. I Love You. I saw it six times in theatres...pretty crazy. I'm gonna try and go tomorrow and then next Friday. Twilight is amazing...seriously! I fell in love with the soundtrack before I even saw the movie and while watching the movie, I fell in love even more with each song. The only song that I wasn't a hundred percent fond of at first was Bella's Lullaby but after watching the movie, its jumped to my current fave!

"I'm definitely fighting fate trying to keep you alive."
-EC