Hi Sam

I like the following:

Sam + Booze + Texas +.... okay, well that's what I love, but it's pretty fucking awesome, is it not?

Brb, going to retrieve Arnold and Sam and my smokes.

AZ, WUT UP!?

I'M IN ARIZONA BITCHES!!! If anyone cares!

Less than four hours and I'll be with SAMSAMSAMSAM and soon JAMANJAMANJAMAN. I love my lifeeeeeeeeeee! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

This is a good imitation of the blues

Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
Yes, so cute! :)

What are you doing Saturday?
I'LL BE IN TEXAS!!! With Sam, apparently drinking at some country bar! HELL. YES.

What's the last song you listened to?
Glory Box - Portishead. I wish I wasn't so damn addicted to this song.

Who is the last person to send you a msg?
A message? What kind of message. If it's via Facebook, than Alex.

Who were the last three people to text your phone?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH, I don't remember, its been so long.

Do you think long distance relationships work out?
I don't know, I've never had to make one work. I think if two people are meant to work out, they'll find a way.

Does anyone disgust you?
A few people. AAHAHAHAHAHA.

What's something you can't wait for?
TEXASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Omfg, soooo soon!

Is anything bothering you?
I'm kinda lonely right now. It's whatever though.

Are you talking to anyone while doing this? Who?
No :( Why are all of you assholes sleeping?

When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Most of the time, I really don't care. But there are those times where I say I don't care and tears immedietely form in my eyes, it's awful.

Think back to yesterday, what were you doing?
Camping, driving home from camping... that's basically it.

Do you enjoy family get togethers?
Sometimes. I enjoy them more now than I used to.

Are you keeping a secret?
Everyone has a secret, therefore, yes, I am keeping a secret and I'll never tell.

Did you laugh a lot at something today?
Not really actually, today was really boring.

Has someone smacked your butt in the past week?
Yes. HAHA.

Your boyfriend/girlfriend isn't around but their phone is, do you look through it?
I made that mistake once and from now on in, I'd rather NOT know.

What if they went through yours?
I'm a pretty open person. There was once a couple texts that were questionable, but we weren't officially dating or anything.

I bet you miss someone?
I do miss lots of people. Sometimes life happens though and people grow apart.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Kind of... maybe :) Texas makes me smile!

Do you believe there is one right person for you out there in the world?
At LEAST one right person. Actually, I believe that there is one PERFECT person for you and a few other people whow definitely fit the description of Mr. Right.

When you're sick or sad, do you want to be alone or do you want someone?
I want someone there for me...but I don't want them being annoying.

Last time you talked on the phone?
Tonight, a few hours ago.

How long where you on the phone for?
Five minutes maybe.

What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
Say thanks and blush

Did you know that you can't kill yourself by holding your breath?
Hmmmm, let me try!

What is something that you realized today?
Simple things make me happy and I love it!

Who was the first person you talked to today?
I don't know...Sam, maybe?

Do you smoke weed everyday?
Negative. I haven't done drugs in a VERY long time.

Who is your favorite person to talk to when you’re down?
Nikki, she understands me way too well.

Do you miss the way things used to be?
At times. I miss being young and stupid. I didn't give a damn about what someone thought of me. If people had an insult to throw at me, I had 3 more to throw back at them. I was fun, not shy in any way and everyday was a new experience.

Are you a patient person?
I try and be but sometimes I get too excited or on the flip side, too freaking bored.

How's your heart lately?
Good, but slightly torn.

When was the last time you cried?
A couple Saturday's ago.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Garage clothing.

Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
Nope.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Hopefully...
My auntie Cindy, my friends.

Who is your last text from?
Hell if I know.

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Sleeping...I was on my 5th hour of sleep to be exact.

What's the last thing you bought?
I did a lot of shopping today...but to get technical... a pack of smokes from 7-11

Last person you gave a hug to (not family)?
Nikki

What do you hear right now?
Gone Country - Alan Jackson

Where's your phone right now?
My bedroom... or something.

How are you feeling?
Tired and bored and restless.

Think of the last time you were REALLY angry when was it?
Yesterday... kind of, I guess. My memory SUCKS apparently.

Name something you are doing tonight?
It's 1:30am, I'm not doing ANYTHING.

Will tomorrow be better than today?
Hopefully, I want to be productive tomorrow. Gym. Haircut. Pack...etc

Honestly has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Yep.

Who else is in the room with you?
No one, I'm by myself just hangin' out

How is your hair right now?
Crazy, I let it dry when I got out of the shower

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
Fuck. No.

What did you do today?
Went shopping, walked my dog, that's it pretty much.

Did you speak to your mother today?
Sure did. I showed her the pretty bathing suit I bought!

Is it easy to make you cry?
YES...UGHHHHH I HATE ITTTT.

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
No, I haven't... I don't think so anyways. Maybe Sam or Megan but that's it.

Do you take walks often?
I walk my dog every single day <3

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Nikki.

Who was the last person you talked to last night before you fell asleep?
That is a secretttt :)

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
No, I would kill people that called me in the middle of the night.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Not a best friend, but a lot of really amazing good friends.

Is your bedroom window open?
No.

What a weird freaking way to end this survey thing! Hmmm, so weird.

I'm tired. Must sleep, I think. That way, tomorrow I can be productive.

CAN'T.STOP.LISTENING.

I listened to this song for the first time last night and although it sounded really familiar, I'm sure I haven't heard it anywhere before.

Anyways, I'M OBSESSED.

There is something in the melody and the words and her voice that I can't figure it out, but it gives me butterflies.

You're a boy and I'm a girl

THE UNCOMFORTABLE SURVEY.
(Lets see if you can get through it. If not; you're too scared about your past)

- How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? 1
- Have you ever thought you're going to marry the person you were with? Yes
- Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Yes
- Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yes
- Are you happier single or in a relationship? I am learning to be happy single. It's definitely not the end of the world like I once thought it was.
- Have you ever been cheated on? If I have, that person hasn't confessed.
- Have you ever had your heart broken? In the heat of the moment, it felt like it, but in the long run, no.
- Have you ever broken someone's heart? I hope not.
- Talk to any of your ex's? Yep
- Think any of your ex's feel the same way about you the way they did when you were dating? Yep. Ugh.
- Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? I think I'm a good girlfriend. I have flaws and I can get on people's nerves but that comes with the territory.
- Have you dated people who were not good to you? No, I've dated people who have had moments of weakness but overall, they were great.
- Have you been in an abusive relationship? No. Eff that.
- Have you dated someone older then you? Yes
- Dated someone younger then you? Yes
- Do you regret anything that you have or haven't done with a boyfriend or girlfriend? No regrets... there are certain things that I ponder or I might have been MORE happy if they went a certain way but I'm still alive and happy, so there is nothing that I really want to take back.
- Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? That's an open ended question. I think the majority of the world with good intentions, deserves a second chance. But if you live life with the intent to harm another person be it physically, mentally or emotionally...sometimes, your realization that you want a do over comes too late...and FUCK YOU.
- Believe in love at first sight? Nope, just lust. How can you base love on a glance?
- Ever dated two people at once? No.
- Ever been given an Engagement ring? No, just a promise ring.
- Do you have something to say to any of your ex's? Not really.
- Ever stolen someone’s boyfriend or girlfriend? Nope
- Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? I've thought they were cute but I've never developed hard feelings.
- Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? If you've never had your heart broken or experienced a breakup with someone that you truly loved, then you can't possibly begin to understand the feeling. It's worse than it sounds.

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Jessica Nicole Miller
Birth date: May 24 1988
Current Location: Home sweet home...aka under my parents roof
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Dark brown with random purpley/pink in it.

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your fears: Dying or getting old before I've done the things I want to do. Living life alone, ladybugs, the future...
Your weakness: Slurpees and that half smile that a guy gives you... drool.
Your perfect pizza: ham, pineapple, green peppers, mushrooms.
Goal you'd like to achieve: Step foot on every continent.

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your thoughts first waking up: "Where the fuck is a clock so I can figure out the time?"
Your best physical feature: My... I don't know damn it.
Your bedtime: lately... between 3 and 6am, before it was around 1am
Your most missed memory: Junior High...ALL OF IT

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or group dates: Group dates
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Eh, I don't really care.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: Neither. Fuck. Ew.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: Yes.
Cuss: Way too much. It gets me in trouble.
Take a shower: Every night usually.
Like school: I enjoyed school for the most part.
Do you believe in yourself: To an extent.
Think you're a health freak: I wish.

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: Nope.
Eaten Sushi: Nope
Gone skating: No haha
Dyed your hair: Yea.

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: Yes
Gotten beaten up: No.
Changed who you were to fit in: Probably, when I was a lot younger.

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
Age your hoping to be married: To be honest, not really. I'm more or less looking for someone to love. If marriage plays a part, so be it.

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: I don't notice eyes. green, brown, blue, it's whatever.
Best hair color: Darker hair... brown
Short or long hair: I like short for the most part...shaved heads make me drool but on occasion, I find myself being STUPIDLY attracted to a guy with long hair and I can't figure it out.

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: This survey, obviously
1 HOUR AGO: Getting home from the mall
1 WEEK AGO: Nothing... walking my dog and showering haha
1 MONTH AGO: Getting ready for FORKS, WA!!! <3
1 YEAR AGO: Living with Alex, working my butt off

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I FEEL: like I should walk my dog, shower and put my laundry away...and pack
I HATE: that time of the month, not having a job, not being in TX with Sam RIGHT NOW
I HIDE: my feelings... A LOT, especially the ones that make me vulnerable.
I NEED: to cuddle up with someone and watch an awesome movie!

AND THERE YOU HAVE IT FOLKS... my boredom

Cold Case File #4937

There is a gangster ghost living in my bathroom...

You know when you get out of the shower and it's all steamy and you can write things in the mirror? Wellllll, when I got out of the shower there was a big huge "MONEY" sign that was previously drawn into the mirror when it was steamy. WTF, I'm the only person who uses that bathroom and I never stopped to think about drawing some gangster shit in my bathroom mirror... sooo yea, AWKWARD. I like to draw hearts and shit but what girl doesn't???

Help me solve this mystery.

:)

La-la-la-listen up!

I really dislike you. I'm not gonna lie. And I'm pretty sick of your shit. So you better not look in my direction or say anything that might be directed to me at TwiCon, or else you're probably going to see me be the biggest bitch of your life. Kthx, bed time now.

Take Me To The Magic Of The Moment

STAMPEDE POSTTTTTTT

So I went to the Calgary Stampede on Thursday and Friday and Saturday. Basically, the Stampede is a MASSIVE outdoor show all set in a country/western theme. There is a HUGE midway, a child's midway, a building where all the big expensive concerts take place, a few other stages and then things like chuckwagon races and the bull riding and all that fun stuff. They also have beer gardens and casino's for anyone wanting to get trashed.

I basically just think of Stampede as one big shit show! It's everyone's excuse that they are ALLOWED to act like complete and total fucking morons for 10 days. I want to remind them that...NO, NO THEY ARE NOT!

Thursday's night adventure down to the grounds was so-so. It was pouring rain all night so we were confined to be inside. Considering the Stampede is an outdoor show, you could see how that would pose problems. There are lots of buildings, but the fun can usually be found outside. We ended up at the casino for a large part of the night. I had a couple drinks, played a couple games, just hung around. All in all, it wasn't that interesting of an evening.

Pictures? Sure!







I was going to talk about the Stampede more in depth but I've given up.

Moving on... I'm not gonna lie, I started this blog a week ago, how sad is that? I'm going camping in like.... 3 hours and I'm not packed, I haven't gone to the grocery store and my entire life is BALHAAHHAHAHAHBLBBLBLHA! I give up, Nikki is going to end my life.

Hiyercutemmmkthxbai!

I WANT TO BE WITH MEGAN RIGHT NOW...recreating the Forks epicness. I'm not going to lie, I'm seriously wondering WHAT will top that vacation??? I honestly am not too sure at this point.

Oh, also...I BOUGHT MY PLANE TICKET TO TEXASSSSSSSSSSS! 12 days in the blistering heat surrounded by bugs and other creepy, crawly things. JOYJOYJOYJOYJOYSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAM

IMSOEXCITEDDANCEDANCEDANCE!!!

I get back from camping, then I have just enough time to pack and FLY AWAY!

Why am I drinking warm diet pepsi right now? I'll tell you why, we have no bottles of water in this house and I refuse to drink tap water. Therefore, I'm stuck with warm DP.

I like being single.

I MIGHT want to find a southern gentlemen, we'll see how convincing Sam is.

I'll settle for an astronaut when I go to NASA, no big deal.

I'm hungry... carrots? I've eaten way too many carrots since Forks...STEP OFF!

I want to get another TATTOO in TEXAS!!!!!! Ideas??? The place that I want tattooed which is the side of my foot, most people won't tattoo it. It angers me, but whatever, I want it.

Nikki and I have 100 dollars worth of alcohol for two nights. It's kind of pathetic. We've got 40oz of Vodka, about 20 coolers and 26oz of Malibu... add the lime juice and diet 7-Up and it's a partyyyyyyy! It's a good thing our food only cost us like... 20 bucks haha.

I've come to accept the fact that 2500 people are attending TwiCon and no matter how much I want to, I'm not going to end up liking every one of those 2500 people. It's whatever...

I have so much american change...damn it

I laugh at how random my blogs are. I seriously just write down whatever pops into the front of my head. Like right now for instance, I want to smoke and listen to Lynyrd Skynyrd. I'm so redneck...WTF???

I really want to move to the states...when? I don't know. SOONIHOPE!

I feel bad for those who were injured or lost loved ones in the hotel bombings in Indonesia. I'm not 100%, but I'm pretty sure my Opa is from Jakarta which is where the bombings took place. Sad times.

I guess I should end this post and go switch my laundry... BUTBUTBUTBUTBUTIDONTWANNAAAAAWHINEWHINEWHINE.

I feel like posting some ballads:

Pfft, side ponytail fo sho!!!

IT'S BILLY JOEL DANCE PARTY DAY!

Cheesy 80's music vids and me dancing along ENSUE!

I'm not even kidding you. I've totally left my browser open all day and I've been STUCK on Billy Joel's YouTube page, it's pretty fuckin' sweet.

Aside from that...

Last night I didn't get to sleep till 4:51am...I know, wtf was I doing up that late? The answer is: EVERYTHING. Who doesn't want to watch Fast Times at Ridgemont High at 3am? Plus smoking, surfing the web and eating also happened in that time as well. I woke up at 10 in the freaking morning. Why? Because my mom is a lunatic and she told me - quote un quote - "Jessica Miller, if you don't clean your room, I will go in with a garbage bag and start throwing shit out! As long as you live under my house, you will keep a tidy living space." No joke, that's what she said. Although, I've gotten the garbage bag threat for years now...still, I cleaned anyways so I didn't have to hear my wonderful mother yell anymore. She is pretty wonderful I must say. She is buying my plane ticket to Texas, what more can I ask for?

OMFG, I'm going to Texas. It actually JUST registered in my head today. I mean, I've been to Texas before, but I stayed in a hotel room and did nothing. Now I get to see what Texas is all about! Guns and tractors and mechanical bulls! Sam is taking me to the bar and to NASA.... I must repeat...SAM IS TAKING ME TO NASA. I'm totally going to like...bring my Armageddon dvd and scoop up some rock sand shit from NASA and put it in my case...because, lets face it, SPACE - fucking cool and Armageddon is the sweetest movie ever! Anyone that knows me, knows that I can watch that movie over and over again and never tire of it. So yea, TEXAS, I spent all day saying to myself "am I fucking insane?" Spiders and snakes and other things that I can't even pronounce and handle. I swear to the heavens, I see myself finding a scorpion, walking up, kicking it and then having it get stuck to my foot and stinging me and I die...DEAD, KAPUT. No one said I had to be smart to go. And I mean, I'm pretty smart, I wear a coat when it's below freezing, I know where to buy a bear whistle from for when I go to the mountains, but HELLO...I'm not Texas smart - not at all. I'm going to accidently walk on someone else's property and get shot. We'll see what happens. If you see a blog post on August 5th, you know I've made it outta there alive.

Ummm, I'm wearing my 3 dollar FLOGGING MOLLY tee right now. I took my dog for a walk in it, did a little 80's dancing in it, and now, it's just chilln' I LOVE THIS SHIRT. *nods*

I just put a clear coat on my nails

Megan's shit surrounds me...seriously. It's messed up. I can see a giant picture story thing that she drew/painted for me in Forks...along with 2 paintins, a cd, a birthday card, a letter and a random note thing. I'm also surrounded by Cam Gigandet and Ryan Reynolds. Can life get any better?

This is random but I'll throw it out there anyways. Throughout the whole "race to the U.S. election," it was made clear, that most of the world had "democratic" point of views when it came to the U.S., or just overall favoured Obama. That's fine, he's a good guy, I liked what he had to say and to be honest, it doesn't phase me since I'm not living in America. What gets me is that the media potrayed most of the U.S. as democratic as well and I mean, obviously they did something right if Obama won. Yet, the demographics that they gave when it came to age/race/location/sex blah blah blah, suggested that my friends in America would be pro Obama, yet almost everyone I talk to is a Republican. Some are even die hard Republican's at that. I'M SO CONFUSED PEOPLE. HOW CAN I LIVE IN YOUR COUNTRY IF I DON'T UNDERSTAND???

Moving on, help me understand.

I think I've watched 9 episodes of CSI, CSI:NY or CSI:Miami today. KIDDING, but channel 43 has been on all day today and that's all that has been playing in my background.

I'm being told I fail via facebook because I don't watch the Office. I don't watch half the shows that are popular. I'm sorry. =(. I kinda wanna watch Lost though. I watched a YouTube tribute video to a couple from the show and it intrigued me. The video was the song "GOODBYE MY ALMOST LOVER." It's kind of popular I suppose. I've loved it for quite a while. Here is the video...I picked a fanmade Twilight vid with the song because I honestly think the song would work great in New Moon.

GOODBYE MY ALMOST LOVER
GOODBYE MY HOPELESS DREAM
I'M TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT YOU
CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME BE?



I WANT TO SEE A DEAR JOHN TRAILER. Argh. I've been waiting for so long... I think Channing Tatum will do fine as John Tyree.

Christmas music is on my television. "that's the jingle bell rockkkkk!"

For some reason, I spend an entire day writing a blog. I just leave the tab open and randomly add shit all day. I think I started this one like over an hour and a half ago.

Now I'm listening to Elton John, but Billy is still first in my life today...don't worry!

I strongly dislike this person who NEVER blogs...she really annoys me.

Oops, time to go to the Stampede...must end this lovely post.

I was going to post shit loads of Billy Joel music BUT you can't embed his YT vids. MONORAIL!

Whatever, just listen to WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE...

Squeeze, squeeze, squeeze!

My dog is snoring and it's the cutest thing of my life! I just want to squeeze her because I love her so freaking much!


I want to clean my room and work out today... WANT being the key word. I'm guessing my lazy self will just continue being lazy though. DAMN IT

I'm Starting With Me!

First of all, be prepared for the longest blog of your life.

This blog will probably be private since I don't want to beat around the bush.

First of all, I just got back from Forks and I must say that I had one of the best times of my entire life. Seriously going in the record books! There aren't enough happy words in the english language to explain how wonderfully happy that trip left me feeling.

First of all: I love Megan with my entire life. Even the part of me that hates her, still wants to cuddle up to her and call her a cunt in a kind, soft voice. Seriously, my life in Forks would have sucked the big one if she wasn't there.

Second of all: Mill Creek Bar owns my life. Do I need to say anymore?

and ummmm.... NAH-HA-HAY-VEY. Yum drool. Yum drool. Yum drool.


Basically the entire trip consisted of eating, sleeping and being drunk...and hey, I can't complain.

It caught me off guard that I would have so much fun, because usually, on vacations it's go, go, go for me. I thought that I would be bored but suprisingly, I wish I were still in Forks, laying in the musty, spider infested motel room. I just want to be back there, hanging out.













You can clearly tell that Thursday night was epic... that is all!

ON ANOTHER NOTE:

Ummm, SAN DIEGO WITH MEGAN IN SEPTEMBER 2009! I had planned for months and months to use one of my days in SoCal to visit Megan, however, it was just decided that I would switch my plane ticket early and stay with her for an extra week! Wonderful, wonderful news. I hope that all goes smoothly because I think that would be an awesome time.

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So I'm supposed to leave for the craziness that is TwiCon very, very soon. However, my poor, jobless ass, doesn't even have a plane ticket yet. DAMN IT. It's stressing me out. I've been moody and bitchy and probably gaining weight since I'm eating the most random shit ever out of boredom. I'm hoping everything will come through. There is NOTHING more at this point, that I want, than to hang out with Sam for two weeks straight. It's been 9 months in the making. I feel like we've nursed a pregnancy together, hell we kind of have!...It's about damn time we get to stay up till all hours of the night and have a face to face chat instead of just on Skype. I would be extremely happy if I got the chance to see Megan and heck, even Cori too. My entire life wants to hang out with my best friends and do WHATEVER...drink, shop, watch movies, gossip, pig out on junk, etc... I don't want to rely on hanging out with them for 4 days under the pressures of TwiCon, that's why I'm going early. A couple of people have said "wow lucky" and even "isn't that a little long," but in all honesty, what is 14 days out of 365? Not a whole lot. In the countless hours that I've spent talking to Sam, I haven't got sick of her, or wanted to fight with her... she pretty much knows the person I am and HOPEFULLY, I her. She knows I'm stubborn, slightly rude, picky, bitchy, you name it...all of my bad qualities have been "out there" for quite some time. I figured if she had issues, I'd know it by now. I'm hoping I'll be the proud owner of a plane ticket by the end of the week. That way I can figure out what to do for everything else! So much to plan and I'm not nearly ready.

I might be going camping next weekend (17th)...this would mean that I'd have to prepared and packed quite soon! That reminds me, where the heck is my passport? Better find that if I want to go anywhere at all! Sheesh.

So, I just want to put it out there:

This blog, these are my thoughts. Yes, it is public, anyone can read it. I just want to make people aware... if you DO read my blog, I'm not writing this for you. That might sound rude, but it's true. There may be thoughts that I put "OUT THERE" or whatever, but at the end of the day, this is what I do to document how I feel. Sure, I could keep a private journal, but at the same time, sometimes I want people to know my thoughts. There are days I get on the computer and I'm a huge bitch to people, than I realize it later on but I'm too selfish and stubborn to say "hey, look, sorry I was being rude earlier!" Instead, I can just take to my blog and talk about my bad day so that maybe they might stumble here and realize "oh, she was just not having a good day!" My blog is rude, vulgar... it's out there. It's me; that's all. There is a reason that I don't link it to my facebook or my myspace. I don't want my mother to see this, or people that I might have met in the Twilight fandom who I'm not on a personal level with. If you read it and comment, that's fine, I encourage it, I love to hear what people think. If I've offended you, that sucks, you can let me know...but please understand, I did not WAKE UP, think about how I wanted to specifically talk about YOU and try to offend you. If I'm talking about a group of people and you take offense, that's your doing, I didn't put you in that group. There are about 4 people that I don't like and it's public knowledge. I don't give a shit...if they read my blog, well sucks to be them. They should not be that interested in my life anyways. Other than those 4 individuals (and my ex-employer), I don't blog about disliking anyone else. I blog specifically about individuals I like!!!...ramble, ramble, ramble. Basically... just don't take offense to what I say. I'm not going to stop swearing, or ranting about things/people that I don't like.

MOVING ON....

I watched Season 1 of True Blood! Took me less than 24 hours. I can't quite give a review yet because I don't know how I feel. There was no dislike or hate, that's for sure, but I also didn't go 'OMFG, MORE MORE MORE.' I found myself NEEDING to watch the next episode, but not because I fell in love with the characters or the story, but just because I was CURIOUS. It captivated me but not in the usual way. For example, I HATED the long freaking intro that went on forever, yet I never bothered fast forwarding through it because I really enjoyed the twisted song.

"I don't know what you've done to me, but I know this much is true; I wanna do bad things with you!"

I've always wanted to go to Louisiana...and ever since I drove through it in February and found the Alligator heads at the road side convenience store and saw the giant chipped, white wooden crosses off the highway, I've wanted to go MORE! No offense to anyone who might live there and could be reading this (Court), but LA seems SO FUCKED UP... like so southern and out of MY personal "normal." It seems like the epitome of the south to me...not to mention movies and novels have given it such a distinct personality. It's so mysterious and edgy and in a lot of cases, dangerous and scary. I want to go...NOW!

Is it sad that I'm eating 5cent candies as we speak?

I only have 2 smokes left...looks like I'm taking the dog for a walk tomorrow.

Speaking of dog, I love taking her for car rides! However, I am NOT...ever taking her for a walk at 7pm at night again. I took her tonight and there were so many rabid dog and dog owners outside. They were psycho...barking and growling and being a pain in my ass... I like walking my dog at noon or midnight...no one is ever outside!

I'll end this and I promise to pick back up on blogging, look for another long post tomorrow, I have lots to talk about but sleep calls to me!

I'll end it off with a Michael Jackson vid. Yes, he passed away and yes, CNN has been on my TV all day. Although he wasn't my idol and I don't know what he may or may not have done in his life, I can't help but be moved by his memorial service. It does not matter who he was or what he may have done...what matters is what he achieved. Bringing millions together, inspirational lyrics, I can't complain!

This is probably my fave MJ song..

here are the lyrics... you can't tell me that these lyrics don't make you reflect and take a second to think! It's WONDERFUL!

"Man In The Mirror"

I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .

As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)

I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?

A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!

I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.



HAPPY TUESDAY!


PS... I really dislike you and your crazy ways!