Saturday, September 26, 2009
Saturday, August 15, 2009
I should be in jail...?
Bold the ones you've done...
1. smoked
2. consumed alcohol
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5. kissed someone of the same sex
6. had sex
7. had someone in your room other than family
8. watched porn
9. bought porn
10. done drugs
MY TOTAL : 9
1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine
3. lied to your parents
4. lied to a friend
5. snuck out of the house
6. done something illegal
7. cut yourself
8. hurt someone
9. wished someone to die
10. seen someone die
MY TOTAL : 6
1. missed curfew
2. stayed out all night
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
4. been to a therapist
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair
7. received a ticket
8. been in an accident
9. been to a club
10. been to a bar
MY TOTAL : 6
1. been to a wild party
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade
3. drank more than four beers in a night
4. had a spring break in Florida
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands
8. wore t-shirts with band names
9. listened to rap
10. owned a 50 Cent CD
MY TOTAL :4
1. dressed Gothic
2. dressed prep
3. dressed punk
4. dressed grunge
5. stole something
6. been too drunk to remember anything
7. blacked out
8. fainted
9. had a crush on a neighbor
MY TOTAL : 6
1. snuck into someone else's room
2. had a crush on your friend
3. been to a concert
4. dry-humped someone
5. been called a slut
6. called someone a slut
7. installed speakers in your car
8. broken a mirror
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
10. brushed your teeth with somone elses toothbrush
MY TOTAL : 8
1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater
3. cruised the mall
4. skipped school
5. had surgery
6. had an injury
7. gone to court
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
9. caught something on fire
10. lied about your age
MY TOTAL : 6
1. owned/rented an apartment
2. broke the law in the police's presence
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police
5. talked to a stranger
6. hugged a stranger
7. kissed a stranger
8. rode in the car with a stranger
9. been harassed
10. been verbally harassed
MY TOTAL : 8
1. met face-to-face with someone you met online
2. stayed online for 5 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight
5. been to a fair
6. been called a bad influence
7. drink and drive
8. prank-called someone
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
10. cheated on a test
MY TOTAL : 8
My Grand Total: 61
Grand Total: -If You Have Less Then 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
-If You Have More Then 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
-If You Have more Then 20..write [im average]
-If You Have More Then 30..write [im a bad kid]
-If You have more then 40..write [im a very bad influence]
-If You Have more then 50..write [im a horrible person]
-If You Have more then 60..write [ i should be in jail ]
-If You Have more then 70..write [im going to hell]
-If You Have more then 80..write [something is fucking wrong]
1. smoked
2. consumed alcohol
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5. kissed someone of the same sex
6. had sex
7. had someone in your room other than family
8. watched porn
9. bought porn
10. done drugs
MY TOTAL : 9
1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine
3. lied to your parents
4. lied to a friend
5. snuck out of the house
6. done something illegal
7. cut yourself
8. hurt someone
9. wished someone to die
10. seen someone die
MY TOTAL : 6
1. missed curfew
2. stayed out all night
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
4. been to a therapist
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair
7. received a ticket
8. been in an accident
9. been to a club
10. been to a bar
MY TOTAL : 6
1. been to a wild party
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade
3. drank more than four beers in a night
4. had a spring break in Florida
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands
8. wore t-shirts with band names
9. listened to rap
10. owned a 50 Cent CD
MY TOTAL :4
1. dressed Gothic
2. dressed prep
3. dressed punk
4. dressed grunge
5. stole something
6. been too drunk to remember anything
7. blacked out
8. fainted
9. had a crush on a neighbor
MY TOTAL : 6
1. snuck into someone else's room
2. had a crush on your friend
3. been to a concert
4. dry-humped someone
5. been called a slut
6. called someone a slut
7. installed speakers in your car
8. broken a mirror
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
10. brushed your teeth with somone elses toothbrush
MY TOTAL : 8
1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater
3. cruised the mall
4. skipped school
5. had surgery
6. had an injury
7. gone to court
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
9. caught something on fire
10. lied about your age
MY TOTAL : 6
1. owned/rented an apartment
2. broke the law in the police's presence
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police
5. talked to a stranger
6. hugged a stranger
7. kissed a stranger
8. rode in the car with a stranger
9. been harassed
10. been verbally harassed
MY TOTAL : 8
1. met face-to-face with someone you met online
2. stayed online for 5 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight
5. been to a fair
6. been called a bad influence
7. drink and drive
8. prank-called someone
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
10. cheated on a test
MY TOTAL : 8
My Grand Total: 61
Grand Total: -If You Have Less Then 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
-If You Have More Then 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
-If You Have more Then 20..write [im average]
-If You Have More Then 30..write [im a bad kid]
-If You have more then 40..write [im a very bad influence]
-If You Have more then 50..write [im a horrible person]
-If You Have more then 60..write [ i should be in jail ]
-If You Have more then 70..write [im going to hell]
-If You Have more then 80..write [something is fucking wrong]
Monday, August 10, 2009
4 days? AHAHAHAH.
1.. Where is the boy you like now?
Pffft, I don't like boys, so to speak. They're complicated individuals.
2. What were you doing Friday night?
Watching G.I. Joe with Nikki!
3. Name something you did yesterday?
Ummmm, does watching G.I. Jane count? I also made dinner (fajita's), did a little writing, read a bit...the usual.
4. Last person you text messaged?
Nikki G.
5. Who was the last person to call you?
I have no idea since I can't afford caller I.D. (not kidding)
6. What are you doing right now?
Watching Men In Black, filling this thing out, willing Megan to blog with my Jedi mind power.
7. Next time you travel out of the country where will it be to?
I'm going to CALIFORNIA and MEXICO... Cruise and SoCal with the family (plus Alex and Rob) and SAN DIEGO (which I know, it's still in California, but it deserves its own spot), to visit MEGANNNNN.
8. What color are your eyes?
Brown
9. Are you allergic to anything?
Cats, some detergents, caffeine...spring time haha
10. Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Nope...
11. Last place you ordered food from
The casino...haha
12. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
Meggo...bedbuddywut?
13. What color is your hair?
Brown and pink!
14. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?
As a really, really small kid, it was classic rock. Platinum Blonde, Kiss, Aerosmith. When I was around 6 or 7, I discovered country music - Garth, Alan, etc. When I got to the age of 10, it was all boy bands and girl stuff.
15. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Ummm, maybe. That's up in the air.
16. Who knows a secret or two about you?
Megan, Sam, Nikki and Kaelie.
17. When was the last time you lied?
Probably sometime within the last two weeks. I have no idea.
18. Do you like fire?
I don't understand this question? It keeps me warm and makes my marshmallows yummy when I go camping!
19. Did you have a nap today?
No napping for me.
20. What is your favorite drink?
Ummm, water (goes with anything), Belini's, I've really taken a liking to peach bacardi and peach iced tea...Mmmmm.
21. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Forever and a half it was sweats(yoga pants), but lately its been jeans
25. Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing now?
Megan made the design and then it was ordered off cafepress...wait, Megan, did I ever pay you for this shirt or I buy it myself?
26. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
Of course, I still wouldn't mind teaching drama and english!
28. Is anyone jealous of you?
Not that I know of... hmmm, I wonder.
30. Have any regrets?
I try not to, but every once in a while, I'll think of something from the past and contemplate it.
31. Where were you 1 hour ago?
Walking my dog
32. Where were you 8 hours ago?
In my bed, reading a book.
35. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
Yep, and it has always turned out awkward.
34. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
My parents!
39. What are you looking forward to next?
Watching the Time Traveler's Wife and going on vacation!
41. Have you kissed anyone in the past week?
Nope.
43. What are you listening to?
One Moment More - Mindy Smith (I'm addicted).
45. Favorite Sports Team?
Calgary Flames, obviously.
46. What song do you want played at your funeral?
This is a morbid song, but I want whatever song reminds my closest friends and family of me!
47. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Laying in bed, reading, computer, tv.
48. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
What the fuck am I going to do today...I wonder if any potential jobs will call me back today???
49. Who will you be with this Saturday night?
I dunno, I don't plan that far in advance.
50. What woke you up this morning?
My dog, sleeping above me and stealing all of my one million pillows.
52. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Hopefully, it's my dad's birthday.
53. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
No. =(
55. How many myspace accounts do you have?
One. Which I NEVER use.
56. Do or did you like school?
I liked school for the most part...high school was the most enjoyable.
56. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
Yea, a select few people.
57. Where would you like to live?
Anywhere but here. Europe would be awesome but I'm planning for the U.S. - it would still be close enough to see my family.
58. Do long distance relationships work?
Generally speaking, not particularly, but there is ALWAYS that exception.
59. Does your crush like you?
I have no idea... guys are difficult to read.
60. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Living elsewhere, hopefully done with school and in a serious relationship.
61. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
Yep, Alex told me he'd never kiss me again though...so that thought ended pretty fast.
62. Does a kiss make your cuts feel better?
Coming from the right person...of course. The whole butterfly feeling takes over and you forget about your cut.
63. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
Yes, I'm not a good drunk at times...no denying it.
64. Can you cook?
Certain things yea...I'm a better baker. I'm learning though.
65. What shoe do you put on first, left or right?
Left...usually, I think. I have no idea. Piss.
66. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
That sounds complicating...so no.
67. Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
What the fuck? I can barely handle one boyfriend at a time...let alone 3. CRAZY TALK, I tell ya.
68. Have you ever thought about your death?
Eeeee, yea. I hope it doesn't happen for a very, very, very long time.
69. Whats your hair color?
Brown with some pink!
70. Where do you put your towel after taking a shower?
Anywhere and everywhere. Generally on the floor in either the bathroom or my bedroom.
71. What color is your shower curtain?
It's a clearish colour with lots of colorful square boxes. Trendy, no?
72. Have you ever had stitches?
Yep, above my eye when I was like...two.
73. Are you straight?
As a board.
74. Did you believe that boys have cooties?
Ummmm, I don't remember. I just know that one day I didn't give two thoughts about them and the next day I was like "hi, boys!"
75. Do you know how to use chop sticks?
I like to think I know how to use them, but in reality, when I use chop sticks in public, people laugh at me.
76. Can you finish the phrase, “Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?”
Spongebob Squarepants... how original.
78. Do you sometimes believe that guys have PMS?
Okay, before I answer this, I stold this quiz thingy from a friend and her answer was HILARIOUS...something about "guys do have pms, they're just lucky they don't bleed out of their dinks once a month..." The she proceeded to say she was going to kick a guy in the dink once a month just so that he would feel the same pain we felt. I don't think I can top her answer. Yes, guys do have PMS... I don't know what it's related to, but it's there!
79. Who was the last person you couldn’t take your eyes off of?
Ummm, secret!
80. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
Yes, I'm so bad for it.
81. Have you ever run over an animal?
Ummm. I ran over a kitten, with my foot. Tragic story, lets not go there.
82. What is your favorite cereal?
Froot Loops! YESSSSSS.
83. Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
Ummm. FUCK. NO! I hate Oreo's and I hate peanut butter so WHY...WHY would I put those two things together?
84. Have you gotten a text today?
No, the day just started two hours ago.
85. Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
I think it's weird but I know a couple straight guys that have it and I'm pretty used to it.
86. Where’s your favorite place to be?
Anywhere but here. So cliche, but it's true.
88. It’s Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
A month ago. I would have been faithfully at work....now, you can usually find me still in bed or if I'm feeling ambitious, at the gym.
89. Who are the last four people to send you a text message?
My phone is too far but I think they consist of either Megan, Sam, Nikki, Alex, Warren or Jasmine...one of the six.
91. What are you listening to?
Five Finger Death Punch - I know, this sounds like a horribly morbid metalcore band or something but it's actually not too bad.
92. Your Christmas list consists of?
Travel money, things I can't have because they cost too much money.
93. Your ex just asked you out and you say?
Not right now... lets talk and hang out and see where things out. No strings attached because I can't handle a relationship right now.
94. You’re going to New York for school shopping, where do you go first?
I don't know...I'm cheap so probably Wal-Mart or something inexpensive.
95. You need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?
Guess has good jeans, so does Warehouse One.
96. How do you feel about your hair?
If it was 5 inches longer, I'd be in love with my hair. I like my hair as it is, but I just want it slightly longer!
97. What time do you wake up for school?
School? Wut?
98. What movie is in your DVD player?
The Notebook <3
99. Last two names in your phone number?
Work
Warren
No x, y or z...what? I don't know a Zach or a Zane or a....???
100. Who calls you by a nickname?
Pretty much everyone I know. I rarely get called Jessica.
101. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
The right generally...pretty much with anyone I share a bed with...except at TwiCon, I was all fucked up because Megan claimed the right side, it was weird.
102. Do you like roller coasters?
Sure do... although the older I get, the more "scarier" they seem.
103. Favorite T.V. show?
One Tree Hill, Gossip Girl...and a million others.
104. Your last IM was from?
Ummmm... Sam, maybe?
106. When’s the next time you’ll kiss someone of the opposite sex?
Hmmm, that's a very good question. I don't foresee kissing anyone anytime soon so unless it's on a whim, then probably not for a while.
107. What do your pants look like?
Jeans, a lighter fade.
108. Are you tired?
No, not really...but I am yawning as I type this so you never know.
109. Do you have to pee?
I don't think so...what is with these questions?
110. Would you kiss the cook of tonights dinner?
Ummm, no. It's my dad's birthday and we're going to a restaurant.
111. Laugh much?
Of course...I was watching iCarly (I have no idea why for), at like 4am yesterday and just LAUGHING my ass off all by myself...then I realized that I have really stooped to a new low.
112. What are your plans for Saturday?
Repetitive questions much? GARRRRR.
114. Favorite sit down restaurant?
Moxies, Boston Pizza ummm...
115. Bubble gum flavor of choice?
Juicy Fruit - the original kind, yum!
116. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I dunno, that is SO up in the air...I want to be happy most of all.
117. The most excitement you had this week?
Ummmm, haha. I forget, this week has been boring! Wait, I know, booking my plane ticket to SAN DIEGO. 20 daysssss!
118. What do you usually order at Taco Bell?
I don't like Taco Bell but if I ever eat it, I just get a soft taco with cheese, meat, lettuce and tomatos.
119. Have you ever sat all the way through Gone With the Wind?
No. Slept through it and studied it, yes. Actually seen the entire thing...noooooo.
120. When was the last time you were up all night?
Like, last night. I stay up allllll night, all the time. I'm good at functioning off of 3 hours of sleep.
121. Where is your favorite place?
Anywhere that's a good time! As of late, Forks, Vegas, Texas, etc...OH, and my bed. Can't forget that. I live in my bed so I must like it some!
122. Do you ever think about the price of gasoline?
Yep
123. Do you sleep with a fan on?
No. I sometimes sleep with my window open but that's about it.
124. What’s the best thing about winter?
Cute scarves and coats and sweaters! Going to the mountains, and CHRISTMAS. Oh man, I love winter.
125. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
A lot of the time. That's generally because I have some rude thoughts going through my head that aren't meant for anyone else's ears. If it's important or crosses my mind more than once, than I pipe up.
126. How many states have you been to?
11. I'd like to see as many states as possible.
127. Are you currently planning a trip?
Heck YES! SD+Mexico+DL+USH in 20 days! After that, it's dependent on how much money I have. I am for sure going to go to either the U.K. or a road trip with Megan. Whatever I do, it'll be EPICCCC.
128. Who was the last person you read something out loud to?
Hmmmmm... ummm, probably Sam, reading something from the computer.
129. Last time you forced yourself to do something
Today, I'm gonna force myself to the gym haha.
130. Have you ever googled your name and found somebody?
Yep, my name is soooooooooo common though.
140. When will you see the person you like?
I don't like anyone therefore I have no idea. =(
141. Can you drive?
Sure can...ish haha.
142. What makes you feel like you are young again?
Doing spontaneous things.
143. Do you ever type “kik” or “;p’;” instead of “lol”?
YES AHAHAHAH, so annoying.
144. Do you know how to play chess?
No but I'd like to learn. TEACH ME.
145. Whats on your mind right now?
I need to go to the gym, and clean and write and pack and blahhhh.
146. Can you count to 1000?
OF COURSE! But why would I want to? That would take quite a while of my time.
147. Who is the last person you kissed?
Haha, ummmmmmmm? That person that randomly kissed me while camping, I guess.
148. What kind of cell phone do you have?
Piece of shit iPhone. Biggest regret ever.
149. How many times have you kissed the person you like?
Like I said, I don't like anyone so therefore, ZERO times.
Pffft, I don't like boys, so to speak. They're complicated individuals.
2. What were you doing Friday night?
Watching G.I. Joe with Nikki!
3. Name something you did yesterday?
Ummmm, does watching G.I. Jane count? I also made dinner (fajita's), did a little writing, read a bit...the usual.
4. Last person you text messaged?
Nikki G.
5. Who was the last person to call you?
I have no idea since I can't afford caller I.D. (not kidding)
6. What are you doing right now?
Watching Men In Black, filling this thing out, willing Megan to blog with my Jedi mind power.
7. Next time you travel out of the country where will it be to?
I'm going to CALIFORNIA and MEXICO... Cruise and SoCal with the family (plus Alex and Rob) and SAN DIEGO (which I know, it's still in California, but it deserves its own spot), to visit MEGANNNNN.
8. What color are your eyes?
Brown
9. Are you allergic to anything?
Cats, some detergents, caffeine...spring time haha
10. Are you dating the last person you kissed?
Nope...
11. Last place you ordered food from
The casino...haha
12. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
Meggo...bedbuddywut?
13. What color is your hair?
Brown and pink!
14. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?
As a really, really small kid, it was classic rock. Platinum Blonde, Kiss, Aerosmith. When I was around 6 or 7, I discovered country music - Garth, Alan, etc. When I got to the age of 10, it was all boy bands and girl stuff.
15. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Ummm, maybe. That's up in the air.
16. Who knows a secret or two about you?
Megan, Sam, Nikki and Kaelie.
17. When was the last time you lied?
Probably sometime within the last two weeks. I have no idea.
18. Do you like fire?
I don't understand this question? It keeps me warm and makes my marshmallows yummy when I go camping!
19. Did you have a nap today?
No napping for me.
20. What is your favorite drink?
Ummm, water (goes with anything), Belini's, I've really taken a liking to peach bacardi and peach iced tea...Mmmmm.
21. What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?
Forever and a half it was sweats(yoga pants), but lately its been jeans
25. Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing now?
Megan made the design and then it was ordered off cafepress...wait, Megan, did I ever pay you for this shirt or I buy it myself?
26. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?
Of course, I still wouldn't mind teaching drama and english!
28. Is anyone jealous of you?
Not that I know of... hmmm, I wonder.
30. Have any regrets?
I try not to, but every once in a while, I'll think of something from the past and contemplate it.
31. Where were you 1 hour ago?
Walking my dog
32. Where were you 8 hours ago?
In my bed, reading a book.
35. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
Yep, and it has always turned out awkward.
34. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
My parents!
39. What are you looking forward to next?
Watching the Time Traveler's Wife and going on vacation!
41. Have you kissed anyone in the past week?
Nope.
43. What are you listening to?
One Moment More - Mindy Smith (I'm addicted).
45. Favorite Sports Team?
Calgary Flames, obviously.
46. What song do you want played at your funeral?
This is a morbid song, but I want whatever song reminds my closest friends and family of me!
47. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Laying in bed, reading, computer, tv.
48. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
What the fuck am I going to do today...I wonder if any potential jobs will call me back today???
49. Who will you be with this Saturday night?
I dunno, I don't plan that far in advance.
50. What woke you up this morning?
My dog, sleeping above me and stealing all of my one million pillows.
52. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Hopefully, it's my dad's birthday.
53. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
No. =(
55. How many myspace accounts do you have?
One. Which I NEVER use.
56. Do or did you like school?
I liked school for the most part...high school was the most enjoyable.
56. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
Yea, a select few people.
57. Where would you like to live?
Anywhere but here. Europe would be awesome but I'm planning for the U.S. - it would still be close enough to see my family.
58. Do long distance relationships work?
Generally speaking, not particularly, but there is ALWAYS that exception.
59. Does your crush like you?
I have no idea... guys are difficult to read.
60. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Living elsewhere, hopefully done with school and in a serious relationship.
61. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
Yep, Alex told me he'd never kiss me again though...so that thought ended pretty fast.
62. Does a kiss make your cuts feel better?
Coming from the right person...of course. The whole butterfly feeling takes over and you forget about your cut.
63. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
Yes, I'm not a good drunk at times...no denying it.
64. Can you cook?
Certain things yea...I'm a better baker. I'm learning though.
65. What shoe do you put on first, left or right?
Left...usually, I think. I have no idea. Piss.
66. Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
That sounds complicating...so no.
67. Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
What the fuck? I can barely handle one boyfriend at a time...let alone 3. CRAZY TALK, I tell ya.
68. Have you ever thought about your death?
Eeeee, yea. I hope it doesn't happen for a very, very, very long time.
69. Whats your hair color?
Brown with some pink!
70. Where do you put your towel after taking a shower?
Anywhere and everywhere. Generally on the floor in either the bathroom or my bedroom.
71. What color is your shower curtain?
It's a clearish colour with lots of colorful square boxes. Trendy, no?
72. Have you ever had stitches?
Yep, above my eye when I was like...two.
73. Are you straight?
As a board.
74. Did you believe that boys have cooties?
Ummmm, I don't remember. I just know that one day I didn't give two thoughts about them and the next day I was like "hi, boys!"
75. Do you know how to use chop sticks?
I like to think I know how to use them, but in reality, when I use chop sticks in public, people laugh at me.
76. Can you finish the phrase, “Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?”
Spongebob Squarepants... how original.
78. Do you sometimes believe that guys have PMS?
Okay, before I answer this, I stold this quiz thingy from a friend and her answer was HILARIOUS...something about "guys do have pms, they're just lucky they don't bleed out of their dinks once a month..." The she proceeded to say she was going to kick a guy in the dink once a month just so that he would feel the same pain we felt. I don't think I can top her answer. Yes, guys do have PMS... I don't know what it's related to, but it's there!
79. Who was the last person you couldn’t take your eyes off of?
Ummm, secret!
80. Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
Yes, I'm so bad for it.
81. Have you ever run over an animal?
Ummm. I ran over a kitten, with my foot. Tragic story, lets not go there.
82. What is your favorite cereal?
Froot Loops! YESSSSSS.
83. Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
Ummm. FUCK. NO! I hate Oreo's and I hate peanut butter so WHY...WHY would I put those two things together?
84. Have you gotten a text today?
No, the day just started two hours ago.
85. Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
I think it's weird but I know a couple straight guys that have it and I'm pretty used to it.
86. Where’s your favorite place to be?
Anywhere but here. So cliche, but it's true.
88. It’s Wednesday afternoon, where are you usually?
A month ago. I would have been faithfully at work....now, you can usually find me still in bed or if I'm feeling ambitious, at the gym.
89. Who are the last four people to send you a text message?
My phone is too far but I think they consist of either Megan, Sam, Nikki, Alex, Warren or Jasmine...one of the six.
91. What are you listening to?
Five Finger Death Punch - I know, this sounds like a horribly morbid metalcore band or something but it's actually not too bad.
92. Your Christmas list consists of?
Travel money, things I can't have because they cost too much money.
93. Your ex just asked you out and you say?
Not right now... lets talk and hang out and see where things out. No strings attached because I can't handle a relationship right now.
94. You’re going to New York for school shopping, where do you go first?
I don't know...I'm cheap so probably Wal-Mart or something inexpensive.
95. You need a new pair of jeans, what store do you go to first?
Guess has good jeans, so does Warehouse One.
96. How do you feel about your hair?
If it was 5 inches longer, I'd be in love with my hair. I like my hair as it is, but I just want it slightly longer!
97. What time do you wake up for school?
School? Wut?
98. What movie is in your DVD player?
The Notebook <3
99. Last two names in your phone number?
Work
Warren
No x, y or z...what? I don't know a Zach or a Zane or a....???
100. Who calls you by a nickname?
Pretty much everyone I know. I rarely get called Jessica.
101. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
The right generally...pretty much with anyone I share a bed with...except at TwiCon, I was all fucked up because Megan claimed the right side, it was weird.
102. Do you like roller coasters?
Sure do... although the older I get, the more "scarier" they seem.
103. Favorite T.V. show?
One Tree Hill, Gossip Girl...and a million others.
104. Your last IM was from?
Ummmm... Sam, maybe?
106. When’s the next time you’ll kiss someone of the opposite sex?
Hmmm, that's a very good question. I don't foresee kissing anyone anytime soon so unless it's on a whim, then probably not for a while.
107. What do your pants look like?
Jeans, a lighter fade.
108. Are you tired?
No, not really...but I am yawning as I type this so you never know.
109. Do you have to pee?
I don't think so...what is with these questions?
110. Would you kiss the cook of tonights dinner?
Ummm, no. It's my dad's birthday and we're going to a restaurant.
111. Laugh much?
Of course...I was watching iCarly (I have no idea why for), at like 4am yesterday and just LAUGHING my ass off all by myself...then I realized that I have really stooped to a new low.
112. What are your plans for Saturday?
Repetitive questions much? GARRRRR.
114. Favorite sit down restaurant?
Moxies, Boston Pizza ummm...
115. Bubble gum flavor of choice?
Juicy Fruit - the original kind, yum!
116. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I dunno, that is SO up in the air...I want to be happy most of all.
117. The most excitement you had this week?
Ummmm, haha. I forget, this week has been boring! Wait, I know, booking my plane ticket to SAN DIEGO. 20 daysssss!
118. What do you usually order at Taco Bell?
I don't like Taco Bell but if I ever eat it, I just get a soft taco with cheese, meat, lettuce and tomatos.
119. Have you ever sat all the way through Gone With the Wind?
No. Slept through it and studied it, yes. Actually seen the entire thing...noooooo.
120. When was the last time you were up all night?
Like, last night. I stay up allllll night, all the time. I'm good at functioning off of 3 hours of sleep.
121. Where is your favorite place?
Anywhere that's a good time! As of late, Forks, Vegas, Texas, etc...OH, and my bed. Can't forget that. I live in my bed so I must like it some!
122. Do you ever think about the price of gasoline?
Yep
123. Do you sleep with a fan on?
No. I sometimes sleep with my window open but that's about it.
124. What’s the best thing about winter?
Cute scarves and coats and sweaters! Going to the mountains, and CHRISTMAS. Oh man, I love winter.
125. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
A lot of the time. That's generally because I have some rude thoughts going through my head that aren't meant for anyone else's ears. If it's important or crosses my mind more than once, than I pipe up.
126. How many states have you been to?
11. I'd like to see as many states as possible.
127. Are you currently planning a trip?
Heck YES! SD+Mexico+DL+USH in 20 days! After that, it's dependent on how much money I have. I am for sure going to go to either the U.K. or a road trip with Megan. Whatever I do, it'll be EPICCCC.
128. Who was the last person you read something out loud to?
Hmmmmm... ummm, probably Sam, reading something from the computer.
129. Last time you forced yourself to do something
Today, I'm gonna force myself to the gym haha.
130. Have you ever googled your name and found somebody?
Yep, my name is soooooooooo common though.
140. When will you see the person you like?
I don't like anyone therefore I have no idea. =(
141. Can you drive?
Sure can...ish haha.
142. What makes you feel like you are young again?
Doing spontaneous things.
143. Do you ever type “kik” or “;p’;” instead of “lol”?
YES AHAHAHAH, so annoying.
144. Do you know how to play chess?
No but I'd like to learn. TEACH ME.
145. Whats on your mind right now?
I need to go to the gym, and clean and write and pack and blahhhh.
146. Can you count to 1000?
OF COURSE! But why would I want to? That would take quite a while of my time.
147. Who is the last person you kissed?
Haha, ummmmmmmm? That person that randomly kissed me while camping, I guess.
148. What kind of cell phone do you have?
Piece of shit iPhone. Biggest regret ever.
149. How many times have you kissed the person you like?
Like I said, I don't like anyone so therefore, ZERO times.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
I'll Be Seeing You.
Good morning world!
Someone in the distance is shouting "posting again already, are we?" Why yes, yes I am. I'm documenting my horribly boring existance way more now than I ever did when I had a life.
First off, I totally had a chick fest last night. I already said I watched Made of Honor...what came after that?
-Made of Honor
-Bridget Jones Diary
-Sense and Sensibility
-The Man In The Iron Mask
Yea, it was a GUUUUUUD night! On top of that, yesterday morning I woke up to "Who's Your Caddy" on my tv. It's not good to wake up to Cam Gigandet...I mean, it's fine... but really, I get disoriented.
So last night I started a post (one day I might complete it) and it was a list of words and or sentences that I considered to be a buzz kill. You know, something that escapes a guys mouth and then you just pack up and walk way.
-My momma says
-Skinny Jeans
-Guy Liner
-My Girlfriend
-Wife
-Significant other
-That romantic comedy that I watched last night...
The list goes on, but you get my point. I wish I had some sort of recording device so that I could document the amount of buzzkills that come out of every guys mouth.
I want food
I want to write
My mom doesn't sound too happy with me this morning. I have yet to unpack my suitcases...suitcases that have STUPID amounts of shit in them. On top of that, they're stationed in the spare room and I've already tore through them, so the entire room is full of clothes and dumb shit.
Okay, yea I know, short blog, but really, nothing interesting has really happened from last nights post to right now. PLUS, food calls to me!
What, this song fits so perfect. Now I feel the need to go and watch the Notebook, especially since The Time Traveler's Wife comes out on Friday. GAHHHHHH. <3
Someone in the distance is shouting "posting again already, are we?" Why yes, yes I am. I'm documenting my horribly boring existance way more now than I ever did when I had a life.
First off, I totally had a chick fest last night. I already said I watched Made of Honor...what came after that?
-Made of Honor
-Bridget Jones Diary
-Sense and Sensibility
-The Man In The Iron Mask
Yea, it was a GUUUUUUD night! On top of that, yesterday morning I woke up to "Who's Your Caddy" on my tv. It's not good to wake up to Cam Gigandet...I mean, it's fine... but really, I get disoriented.
So last night I started a post (one day I might complete it) and it was a list of words and or sentences that I considered to be a buzz kill. You know, something that escapes a guys mouth and then you just pack up and walk way.
-My momma says
-Skinny Jeans
-Guy Liner
-My Girlfriend
-Wife
-Significant other
-That romantic comedy that I watched last night...
The list goes on, but you get my point. I wish I had some sort of recording device so that I could document the amount of buzzkills that come out of every guys mouth.
I want food
I want to write
My mom doesn't sound too happy with me this morning. I have yet to unpack my suitcases...suitcases that have STUPID amounts of shit in them. On top of that, they're stationed in the spare room and I've already tore through them, so the entire room is full of clothes and dumb shit.
Okay, yea I know, short blog, but really, nothing interesting has really happened from last nights post to right now. PLUS, food calls to me!
What, this song fits so perfect. Now I feel the need to go and watch the Notebook, especially since The Time Traveler's Wife comes out on Friday. GAHHHHHH. <3
Saturday, August 8, 2009
It`s Just Enough To Steal My Heart And Run
Hi.
Fuck.
Well, that about sums it up.
What the hell did I do today? NOTHING, absolutely nothing. I had a very restless sleep and when I finally decided to wake up at around 11, nothing spectacular happened. Got on the computer, walked aimlessly around my house and then finished off my book - The Doomsday Key. My afternoon was relatively productive. Ended up conversing with Megan (whom I feel the need to call @exot3ch - thanks Twitter), and working on the outline of our STORYSTORYSTORY. Now hopefully we can write more freely!
After that I napped, yea because I have nothing better to do. This evening I found myself eating dinner (carrots and dip), watching Made of Honor and reading "Love the One You're With."
I'm just sayin' right now....why the hell do I delve into the whole romantic thing every once in a while. I'm perfectly content not having it in my life and then I just go on these giant kicks. Then it depresses me...not because I want a boyfriend or anything, but because I realize that I look like one of those sad, pathetic girls in the movies who sits in front of the tv all night, being all mopey while eating a tube of ice cream. However, no tube of ice cream for me...just the 100 calorie Rolo ice cream bars from my freezer...sooooooo good!
After I finish this blog, I'll resume that spot in front of the tv, with my blanket and book. I really...HAVE NO LIFE. I can't get over that fact. I'm hording my money for my vacation and any emergency that might arise. I use the word arise since Megan and I discussed it today and it has stuck with me.
I think I would like some romance in my life though. Not because I want and or need a guy calling me cute and taking me out to dinner, but because, I then have a reason to shave my legs. How sad is that? I won't shave my legs because I have no one to impress....oh man. At this point I'll settle for a job, any excuse to find my feminine side.
I think what scares me the most is that I'm comfortable. I remember breaking up with Alex and I didn't think I'd ever be "ok" alone again. I thought I'd never get used to not having anyone to share a bed with or someone to say goodnight and good morning to. I just didn't think I'd be functional...even though everyone assured me that life does go on (which is by the way, the worst saying ever and I will never say that to any friend going through a breakup). Now, here I am, been officially out of a relationship for quite some time now, and I feel fine. It's actually kind of annoying. What's even more annoying is that I'm actually anti relationship at the moment. I'm enjoying the "single" life, I guess you'd say, even though lately I just replace the word "single" with "no." I just DON'T want to get to the point where I feel "lonely" and like I'll never find love again. I mean, don't get me wrong, we all have those "lonely" days, but you know what I mean. I'm a person who is scared of the unfamiliar and in a lot of scenarios, I'll admit defeat before I've even attempted. I know, it's pathetic...and I said A LOT OF, not ALL.
I'm rambling... look it, read a chick lit and watch a romantic comedy and look what happens. I'm so lame.
I'm sad that my favourite people have to live so far and I'm hoping that in the distant future someone will be like "Jessica, I want to come to Canadaland and visit you!" Realistically, that someone has to be Megan *cough cough*. Seat sales from SD are stupidly cheap sometimes, plus she isn't tied down AND she has a passport. It's kind of meant to be.
Also, who loves Will Ferrell and FREEDOM FRIES? I sure friggin do.
I miss Forks...which I know I say way too often, but it's true. I don't know what it was about hanging out in a motel room full of spiders and other crawly insects, but something about that place was freaking magical. I'm chalking it up to a combination of being with Megan for a week, being located next to the bar and grocery store, being in a small town (I live for small towns), the ridiculously good looking Navy guys and the scenery.
Basically, I live for the simplicity that was that vacation. There were no places to be or people to see. We didn't have to dress to impress or work at finding fun and laughter. It all came so easily. It's not often that you can venture away from home and find happiness in a town of 3000 in a musty old motel room. It made for amazing memories.
I think that's what has sparked my interest in doing a road trip across North America. I mean, it's always been something that I've been interested in. A lot of my family has done stuff like that before, but now it's something I REALLY want to do! The idea of experiencing small town America really intrigues me. Not really knowing where you're gonna end up from day to day is kind of thrilling. Plus, it's awesome to see how the west differs from the east and the south and so on. planplanplan
I wish my stupid friends would blog. How can I stalk them if there is nothing to stalk? I live on Facebook/Twitter/Blogspot...hell, I even update my msn/skype frequently. Right now my skype status speaks of carrots on steroids. SO TRUE. I open the bag of carrots tonight and look inside and the front of the bag reads "baby carrots," but when you look inside, these things are larger than fingers. I also found two carrots melded together to form a very perfect "V." I automatically referenced Black Dagger Brotherhood.
I also JUST fucking discovered that my television has stop and start or whatever...Iunno what Americans call it - Tivo? DVR? Whatever it is, my tv has it too. I was at Sam's and absolutely STUNNED that she could rewind and all this cool stuff, then I realize MY TV DOES THAT TOO. I'm like "sweet, I can pause and go for a smoke, or to eat, or to pee." I think I felt how Christopher Columbus felt when he discovered North America.
I need to drink more watah
I need to exercise
I need to clean and pack
I need to unpack my suitcase
I need to buy 17 Again on Tuesday
I often replace all of those "needs" with "shoulds."
Is it just me or does anyone else think that I have the stupidest, most RANDOM blogs ever? I think if I tried to keep with one topic, I'd fail miserably. I'm looking at my night stand right now and it consists of vampire novels and European travel books. HOW WEIRD!...oh and Aquafina chapstick and a Blink 182 patch that I've had since I was like... 14.
I kind of think Jacob deserves a more prominent place in my room. His poor self, in the closet with the rest of my junk.
I think I should probably end this and go watch Sense and Sensibility! So excited that I finally own it on DVD. $5.00, thank you Target!
This song is really depressing but gorgeous, I don't know if I've already added it to my blog in the past... here it is, lyrics and all!
"Hurricane"
I felt the
Faint trace of thunder
Rattle this old house
I saw the fire light the sky
But there's no sign of rain anywhere
I need a hurricane
To empty out this place
Seems it's the only way
To salvage any sense I have left
To move on
I'm waiting
To hear your voice again
And lighten up this heart
I'm holding on to stupid memories
But I see you in every little thing
I need a hurricane
To straighted out this place
It maybe the only way
To salvage any sense I have left
To move on
I need a hurricane
To ravage through place
I think it's the only way
To salvage any sense
I have left
To move on
I felt the
Faint trace of thunder
But there's no sign of rain anywhere
No, there's no sign of you anywhere
Fuck.
Well, that about sums it up.
What the hell did I do today? NOTHING, absolutely nothing. I had a very restless sleep and when I finally decided to wake up at around 11, nothing spectacular happened. Got on the computer, walked aimlessly around my house and then finished off my book - The Doomsday Key. My afternoon was relatively productive. Ended up conversing with Megan (whom I feel the need to call @exot3ch - thanks Twitter), and working on the outline of our STORYSTORYSTORY. Now hopefully we can write more freely!
After that I napped, yea because I have nothing better to do. This evening I found myself eating dinner (carrots and dip), watching Made of Honor and reading "Love the One You're With."
I'm just sayin' right now....why the hell do I delve into the whole romantic thing every once in a while. I'm perfectly content not having it in my life and then I just go on these giant kicks. Then it depresses me...not because I want a boyfriend or anything, but because I realize that I look like one of those sad, pathetic girls in the movies who sits in front of the tv all night, being all mopey while eating a tube of ice cream. However, no tube of ice cream for me...just the 100 calorie Rolo ice cream bars from my freezer...sooooooo good!
After I finish this blog, I'll resume that spot in front of the tv, with my blanket and book. I really...HAVE NO LIFE. I can't get over that fact. I'm hording my money for my vacation and any emergency that might arise. I use the word arise since Megan and I discussed it today and it has stuck with me.
I think I would like some romance in my life though. Not because I want and or need a guy calling me cute and taking me out to dinner, but because, I then have a reason to shave my legs. How sad is that? I won't shave my legs because I have no one to impress....oh man. At this point I'll settle for a job, any excuse to find my feminine side.
I think what scares me the most is that I'm comfortable. I remember breaking up with Alex and I didn't think I'd ever be "ok" alone again. I thought I'd never get used to not having anyone to share a bed with or someone to say goodnight and good morning to. I just didn't think I'd be functional...even though everyone assured me that life does go on (which is by the way, the worst saying ever and I will never say that to any friend going through a breakup). Now, here I am, been officially out of a relationship for quite some time now, and I feel fine. It's actually kind of annoying. What's even more annoying is that I'm actually anti relationship at the moment. I'm enjoying the "single" life, I guess you'd say, even though lately I just replace the word "single" with "no." I just DON'T want to get to the point where I feel "lonely" and like I'll never find love again. I mean, don't get me wrong, we all have those "lonely" days, but you know what I mean. I'm a person who is scared of the unfamiliar and in a lot of scenarios, I'll admit defeat before I've even attempted. I know, it's pathetic...and I said A LOT OF, not ALL.
I'm rambling... look it, read a chick lit and watch a romantic comedy and look what happens. I'm so lame.
I'm sad that my favourite people have to live so far and I'm hoping that in the distant future someone will be like "Jessica, I want to come to Canadaland and visit you!" Realistically, that someone has to be Megan *cough cough*. Seat sales from SD are stupidly cheap sometimes, plus she isn't tied down AND she has a passport. It's kind of meant to be.
Also, who loves Will Ferrell and FREEDOM FRIES? I sure friggin do.
I miss Forks...which I know I say way too often, but it's true. I don't know what it was about hanging out in a motel room full of spiders and other crawly insects, but something about that place was freaking magical. I'm chalking it up to a combination of being with Megan for a week, being located next to the bar and grocery store, being in a small town (I live for small towns), the ridiculously good looking Navy guys and the scenery.
Basically, I live for the simplicity that was that vacation. There were no places to be or people to see. We didn't have to dress to impress or work at finding fun and laughter. It all came so easily. It's not often that you can venture away from home and find happiness in a town of 3000 in a musty old motel room. It made for amazing memories.
I think that's what has sparked my interest in doing a road trip across North America. I mean, it's always been something that I've been interested in. A lot of my family has done stuff like that before, but now it's something I REALLY want to do! The idea of experiencing small town America really intrigues me. Not really knowing where you're gonna end up from day to day is kind of thrilling. Plus, it's awesome to see how the west differs from the east and the south and so on. planplanplan
I wish my stupid friends would blog. How can I stalk them if there is nothing to stalk? I live on Facebook/Twitter/Blogspot...hell, I even update my msn/skype frequently. Right now my skype status speaks of carrots on steroids. SO TRUE. I open the bag of carrots tonight and look inside and the front of the bag reads "baby carrots," but when you look inside, these things are larger than fingers. I also found two carrots melded together to form a very perfect "V." I automatically referenced Black Dagger Brotherhood.
I also JUST fucking discovered that my television has stop and start or whatever...Iunno what Americans call it - Tivo? DVR? Whatever it is, my tv has it too. I was at Sam's and absolutely STUNNED that she could rewind and all this cool stuff, then I realize MY TV DOES THAT TOO. I'm like "sweet, I can pause and go for a smoke, or to eat, or to pee." I think I felt how Christopher Columbus felt when he discovered North America.
I need to drink more watah
I need to exercise
I need to clean and pack
I need to unpack my suitcase
I need to buy 17 Again on Tuesday
I often replace all of those "needs" with "shoulds."
Is it just me or does anyone else think that I have the stupidest, most RANDOM blogs ever? I think if I tried to keep with one topic, I'd fail miserably. I'm looking at my night stand right now and it consists of vampire novels and European travel books. HOW WEIRD!...oh and Aquafina chapstick and a Blink 182 patch that I've had since I was like... 14.
I kind of think Jacob deserves a more prominent place in my room. His poor self, in the closet with the rest of my junk.
I think I should probably end this and go watch Sense and Sensibility! So excited that I finally own it on DVD. $5.00, thank you Target!
This song is really depressing but gorgeous, I don't know if I've already added it to my blog in the past... here it is, lyrics and all!
"Hurricane"
I felt the
Faint trace of thunder
Rattle this old house
I saw the fire light the sky
But there's no sign of rain anywhere
I need a hurricane
To empty out this place
Seems it's the only way
To salvage any sense I have left
To move on
I'm waiting
To hear your voice again
And lighten up this heart
I'm holding on to stupid memories
But I see you in every little thing
I need a hurricane
To straighted out this place
It maybe the only way
To salvage any sense I have left
To move on
I need a hurricane
To ravage through place
I think it's the only way
To salvage any sense
I have left
To move on
I felt the
Faint trace of thunder
But there's no sign of rain anywhere
No, there's no sign of you anywhere
Friday, August 7, 2009
Who Counts Sheep These Days?
Hahahahaha
I think it's funny that this one person in particular rants on how she was treated by the cast... as if she was given some sort of VIP treatment? WTF, they're paid to be nice to you. The reason that I'm not nice to you is because I am not paid. If I was given thousands of dollars, I'd say whatever you wanted to hear too!
Moving on, I saw G.I. Joe tonight. I enjoyed it. There was a lot of different things happening during certain parts of the movie which kind of left my head spinning, but it's a simple movie and one that would entertain a family in general... I think anyways haha.
At this point in my life, if someone hires me, I think I'd be willing to pay THEM! I'm so desperate, this is my day:
11am - wake up, turn on computer, look around my room for an hour
12:30 - get out of bed, find clothes, go downstairs, look for food, realize there is no food, go for a smoke, head back to bed
1pm - Read and go on the computer for approx 30 minutes
SLEEEEEEEEEP
4pm - wake up and realize I just wasted my entire afternoon
5pm - shower and smoke
6 - bedtime (12-6am ish) - read, smoke, computer, repeat
YES, MY LIFE IS GOING DOWNHILL. Everyday I'm like "my ass needs to see the gym...and everyday it doesn't happen.
If I had a life, I'd blog about it...butttt I don't. I'm so lazy, I won't even upload pictures. SO SAD!
I guess I should go rotate and maybe read for a bit. BLAH.
I'm outtie I-town (stands for internet town)
I think it's funny that this one person in particular rants on how she was treated by the cast... as if she was given some sort of VIP treatment? WTF, they're paid to be nice to you. The reason that I'm not nice to you is because I am not paid. If I was given thousands of dollars, I'd say whatever you wanted to hear too!
Moving on, I saw G.I. Joe tonight. I enjoyed it. There was a lot of different things happening during certain parts of the movie which kind of left my head spinning, but it's a simple movie and one that would entertain a family in general... I think anyways haha.
At this point in my life, if someone hires me, I think I'd be willing to pay THEM! I'm so desperate, this is my day:
11am - wake up, turn on computer, look around my room for an hour
12:30 - get out of bed, find clothes, go downstairs, look for food, realize there is no food, go for a smoke, head back to bed
1pm - Read and go on the computer for approx 30 minutes
SLEEEEEEEEEP
4pm - wake up and realize I just wasted my entire afternoon
5pm - shower and smoke
6 - bedtime (12-6am ish) - read, smoke, computer, repeat
YES, MY LIFE IS GOING DOWNHILL. Everyday I'm like "my ass needs to see the gym...and everyday it doesn't happen.
If I had a life, I'd blog about it...butttt I don't. I'm so lazy, I won't even upload pictures. SO SAD!
I guess I should go rotate and maybe read for a bit. BLAH.
I'm outtie I-town (stands for internet town)
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Not Like You Do.
TwiCon is over, Texas is over, meeting everyone is over...
and I'm kind of wondering...
Am I over IT?
I mean, really? REALLY? Am I?
I know my friends are going to read this and think "why the hell is she being all emo?"
To be honest, this vacation has made me exhausted and ponder a lot of things. For example, the amount of effort I put into not only maintaining the friendships I have made, but the really, really good friendships that I've made. Like the girls that I call my best friends... It's seriously exhausting. I don't know when I'm going to see these people again and I don't know where to go from here.
I want to be done with the Fandom and my life online. I want to wash my hands of all of it. Friends, website included, but than, that would be extremely selfish.
I guess I came home kind of depressed. Usually at the end of a vacation, I WANT to come home, but not this one. This one I wanted to stay and that was merely because I didn't get to do the things that I wanted to do. Go out on the town and let myself be free. I felt like I didn't get to connect with the people I wanted to connect with and all in all, I mean, I had fun, I guess it was just so different than from what I was expecting. I definitely know that I like vacations with just close friends and I like having my own vehicle so I can come and go as I please. It's hard when different people want to do different things. Forks was easy. We could do whatever, whenever. I wish I could have gotten my family more souvenirs. I wish I could have gotten myself a souvenir... I wish I could have gotten Nikki something. There just wasn't time to take a breath and focus and figure out what I wanted to get or anything.
Now that I'm home, I don't have anything to look forward to and I feel painfully useless and unsteady. Before it was "TwiCon is right around the corner and then I'll figure my shit out." Now, I'm just looking at my options and realizing that I have none. I put so much focus on Twilight, TwiCon, Sam and Megan and now I'm wondering, do I want to keep my focus there??? In the back of my head, I'm trying to sort out times that I might be able to visit them in the future, but at some point, I need to stop myself. There are other vacations I want to take plus, I want to live either in the U.S. or the U.K. and I need to make that happen. Sooner rather than later. I love the accomplishments that I've made and the friends I've met, but do I see a future in the direction that I'm looking at right now? Am I realistically going to be able to keep these girls dear to my heart who mean so much to me right now? It all seems like such a long shot which is why I need to figure it out ASAP.
AHHHHH, EMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMO
I think not having a job and being so unsure about things is making my life difficult. All the things that I want in life are cluster fucked together and sitting on top of them is me...NOT having money. What the fuck am I doing to do once I do get a job and get money? I'm going to pull myself in so many different directions.
Ugh, I'll just go read my book and sort my stupid thoughts when I might be able to figure them out.
I miss so many people right now. Alex being the main one. When did this life get so difficult? I want to be 14 again where everyday was fucked up and I just didn't give a shit.
Please, let me leave you with the weirdest song EVER!
and I'm kind of wondering...
Am I over IT?
I mean, really? REALLY? Am I?
I know my friends are going to read this and think "why the hell is she being all emo?"
To be honest, this vacation has made me exhausted and ponder a lot of things. For example, the amount of effort I put into not only maintaining the friendships I have made, but the really, really good friendships that I've made. Like the girls that I call my best friends... It's seriously exhausting. I don't know when I'm going to see these people again and I don't know where to go from here.
I want to be done with the Fandom and my life online. I want to wash my hands of all of it. Friends, website included, but than, that would be extremely selfish.
I guess I came home kind of depressed. Usually at the end of a vacation, I WANT to come home, but not this one. This one I wanted to stay and that was merely because I didn't get to do the things that I wanted to do. Go out on the town and let myself be free. I felt like I didn't get to connect with the people I wanted to connect with and all in all, I mean, I had fun, I guess it was just so different than from what I was expecting. I definitely know that I like vacations with just close friends and I like having my own vehicle so I can come and go as I please. It's hard when different people want to do different things. Forks was easy. We could do whatever, whenever. I wish I could have gotten my family more souvenirs. I wish I could have gotten myself a souvenir... I wish I could have gotten Nikki something. There just wasn't time to take a breath and focus and figure out what I wanted to get or anything.
Now that I'm home, I don't have anything to look forward to and I feel painfully useless and unsteady. Before it was "TwiCon is right around the corner and then I'll figure my shit out." Now, I'm just looking at my options and realizing that I have none. I put so much focus on Twilight, TwiCon, Sam and Megan and now I'm wondering, do I want to keep my focus there??? In the back of my head, I'm trying to sort out times that I might be able to visit them in the future, but at some point, I need to stop myself. There are other vacations I want to take plus, I want to live either in the U.S. or the U.K. and I need to make that happen. Sooner rather than later. I love the accomplishments that I've made and the friends I've met, but do I see a future in the direction that I'm looking at right now? Am I realistically going to be able to keep these girls dear to my heart who mean so much to me right now? It all seems like such a long shot which is why I need to figure it out ASAP.
AHHHHH, EMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMO
I think not having a job and being so unsure about things is making my life difficult. All the things that I want in life are cluster fucked together and sitting on top of them is me...NOT having money. What the fuck am I doing to do once I do get a job and get money? I'm going to pull myself in so many different directions.
Ugh, I'll just go read my book and sort my stupid thoughts when I might be able to figure them out.
I miss so many people right now. Alex being the main one. When did this life get so difficult? I want to be 14 again where everyday was fucked up and I just didn't give a shit.
Please, let me leave you with the weirdest song EVER!
Friday, July 24, 2009
Hi Sam
I like the following:
Sam + Booze + Texas +.... okay, well that's what I love, but it's pretty fucking awesome, is it not?
Brb, going to retrieve Arnold and Sam and my smokes.
Sam + Booze + Texas +.... okay, well that's what I love, but it's pretty fucking awesome, is it not?
Brb, going to retrieve Arnold and Sam and my smokes.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
AZ, WUT UP!?
I'M IN ARIZONA BITCHES!!! If anyone cares!
Less than four hours and I'll be with SAMSAMSAMSAM and soon JAMANJAMANJAMAN. I love my lifeeeeeeeeeee! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Less than four hours and I'll be with SAMSAMSAMSAM and soon JAMANJAMANJAMAN. I love my lifeeeeeeeeeee! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
This is a good imitation of the blues
Has anyone told you they missed you lately?
Yes, so cute! :)
What are you doing Saturday?
I'LL BE IN TEXAS!!! With Sam, apparently drinking at some country bar! HELL. YES.
What's the last song you listened to?
Glory Box - Portishead. I wish I wasn't so damn addicted to this song.
Who is the last person to send you a msg?
A message? What kind of message. If it's via Facebook, than Alex.
Who were the last three people to text your phone?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH, I don't remember, its been so long.
Do you think long distance relationships work out?
I don't know, I've never had to make one work. I think if two people are meant to work out, they'll find a way.
Does anyone disgust you?
A few people. AAHAHAHAHAHA.
What's something you can't wait for?
TEXASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Omfg, soooo soon!
Is anything bothering you?
I'm kinda lonely right now. It's whatever though.
Are you talking to anyone while doing this? Who?
No :( Why are all of you assholes sleeping?
When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Most of the time, I really don't care. But there are those times where I say I don't care and tears immedietely form in my eyes, it's awful.
Think back to yesterday, what were you doing?
Camping, driving home from camping... that's basically it.
Do you enjoy family get togethers?
Sometimes. I enjoy them more now than I used to.
Are you keeping a secret?
Everyone has a secret, therefore, yes, I am keeping a secret and I'll never tell.
Did you laugh a lot at something today?
Not really actually, today was really boring.
Has someone smacked your butt in the past week?
Yes. HAHA.
Your boyfriend/girlfriend isn't around but their phone is, do you look through it?
I made that mistake once and from now on in, I'd rather NOT know.
What if they went through yours?
I'm a pretty open person. There was once a couple texts that were questionable, but we weren't officially dating or anything.
I bet you miss someone?
I do miss lots of people. Sometimes life happens though and people grow apart.
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Kind of... maybe :) Texas makes me smile!
Do you believe there is one right person for you out there in the world?
At LEAST one right person. Actually, I believe that there is one PERFECT person for you and a few other people whow definitely fit the description of Mr. Right.
When you're sick or sad, do you want to be alone or do you want someone?
I want someone there for me...but I don't want them being annoying.
Last time you talked on the phone?
Tonight, a few hours ago.
How long where you on the phone for?
Five minutes maybe.
What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
Say thanks and blush
Did you know that you can't kill yourself by holding your breath?
Hmmmm, let me try!
What is something that you realized today?
Simple things make me happy and I love it!
Who was the first person you talked to today?
I don't know...Sam, maybe?
Do you smoke weed everyday?
Negative. I haven't done drugs in a VERY long time.
Who is your favorite person to talk to when you’re down?
Nikki, she understands me way too well.
Do you miss the way things used to be?
At times. I miss being young and stupid. I didn't give a damn about what someone thought of me. If people had an insult to throw at me, I had 3 more to throw back at them. I was fun, not shy in any way and everyday was a new experience.
Are you a patient person?
I try and be but sometimes I get too excited or on the flip side, too freaking bored.
How's your heart lately?
Good, but slightly torn.
When was the last time you cried?
A couple Saturday's ago.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Garage clothing.
Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
Nope.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Hopefully...
My auntie Cindy, my friends.
Who is your last text from?
Hell if I know.
What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Sleeping...I was on my 5th hour of sleep to be exact.
What's the last thing you bought?
I did a lot of shopping today...but to get technical... a pack of smokes from 7-11
Last person you gave a hug to (not family)?
Nikki
What do you hear right now?
Gone Country - Alan Jackson
Where's your phone right now?
My bedroom... or something.
How are you feeling?
Tired and bored and restless.
Think of the last time you were REALLY angry when was it?
Yesterday... kind of, I guess. My memory SUCKS apparently.
Name something you are doing tonight?
It's 1:30am, I'm not doing ANYTHING.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Hopefully, I want to be productive tomorrow. Gym. Haircut. Pack...etc
Honestly has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Yep.
Who else is in the room with you?
No one, I'm by myself just hangin' out
How is your hair right now?
Crazy, I let it dry when I got out of the shower
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
Fuck. No.
What did you do today?
Went shopping, walked my dog, that's it pretty much.
Did you speak to your mother today?
Sure did. I showed her the pretty bathing suit I bought!
Is it easy to make you cry?
YES...UGHHHHH I HATE ITTTT.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
No, I haven't... I don't think so anyways. Maybe Sam or Megan but that's it.
Do you take walks often?
I walk my dog every single day <3
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Nikki.
Who was the last person you talked to last night before you fell asleep?
That is a secretttt :)
Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
No, I would kill people that called me in the middle of the night.
Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Not a best friend, but a lot of really amazing good friends.
Is your bedroom window open?
No.
What a weird freaking way to end this survey thing! Hmmm, so weird.
I'm tired. Must sleep, I think. That way, tomorrow I can be productive.
Yes, so cute! :)
What are you doing Saturday?
I'LL BE IN TEXAS!!! With Sam, apparently drinking at some country bar! HELL. YES.
What's the last song you listened to?
Glory Box - Portishead. I wish I wasn't so damn addicted to this song.
Who is the last person to send you a msg?
A message? What kind of message. If it's via Facebook, than Alex.
Who were the last three people to text your phone?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH, I don't remember, its been so long.
Do you think long distance relationships work out?
I don't know, I've never had to make one work. I think if two people are meant to work out, they'll find a way.
Does anyone disgust you?
A few people. AAHAHAHAHAHA.
What's something you can't wait for?
TEXASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Omfg, soooo soon!
Is anything bothering you?
I'm kinda lonely right now. It's whatever though.
Are you talking to anyone while doing this? Who?
No :( Why are all of you assholes sleeping?
When you say you don't care do you mean it?
Most of the time, I really don't care. But there are those times where I say I don't care and tears immedietely form in my eyes, it's awful.
Think back to yesterday, what were you doing?
Camping, driving home from camping... that's basically it.
Do you enjoy family get togethers?
Sometimes. I enjoy them more now than I used to.
Are you keeping a secret?
Everyone has a secret, therefore, yes, I am keeping a secret and I'll never tell.
Did you laugh a lot at something today?
Not really actually, today was really boring.
Has someone smacked your butt in the past week?
Yes. HAHA.
Your boyfriend/girlfriend isn't around but their phone is, do you look through it?
I made that mistake once and from now on in, I'd rather NOT know.
What if they went through yours?
I'm a pretty open person. There was once a couple texts that were questionable, but we weren't officially dating or anything.
I bet you miss someone?
I do miss lots of people. Sometimes life happens though and people grow apart.
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Kind of... maybe :) Texas makes me smile!
Do you believe there is one right person for you out there in the world?
At LEAST one right person. Actually, I believe that there is one PERFECT person for you and a few other people whow definitely fit the description of Mr. Right.
When you're sick or sad, do you want to be alone or do you want someone?
I want someone there for me...but I don't want them being annoying.
Last time you talked on the phone?
Tonight, a few hours ago.
How long where you on the phone for?
Five minutes maybe.
What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
Say thanks and blush
Did you know that you can't kill yourself by holding your breath?
Hmmmm, let me try!
What is something that you realized today?
Simple things make me happy and I love it!
Who was the first person you talked to today?
I don't know...Sam, maybe?
Do you smoke weed everyday?
Negative. I haven't done drugs in a VERY long time.
Who is your favorite person to talk to when you’re down?
Nikki, she understands me way too well.
Do you miss the way things used to be?
At times. I miss being young and stupid. I didn't give a damn about what someone thought of me. If people had an insult to throw at me, I had 3 more to throw back at them. I was fun, not shy in any way and everyday was a new experience.
Are you a patient person?
I try and be but sometimes I get too excited or on the flip side, too freaking bored.
How's your heart lately?
Good, but slightly torn.
When was the last time you cried?
A couple Saturday's ago.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Garage clothing.
Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
Nope.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Hopefully...
My auntie Cindy, my friends.
Who is your last text from?
Hell if I know.
What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Sleeping...I was on my 5th hour of sleep to be exact.
What's the last thing you bought?
I did a lot of shopping today...but to get technical... a pack of smokes from 7-11
Last person you gave a hug to (not family)?
Nikki
What do you hear right now?
Gone Country - Alan Jackson
Where's your phone right now?
My bedroom... or something.
How are you feeling?
Tired and bored and restless.
Think of the last time you were REALLY angry when was it?
Yesterday... kind of, I guess. My memory SUCKS apparently.
Name something you are doing tonight?
It's 1:30am, I'm not doing ANYTHING.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Hopefully, I want to be productive tomorrow. Gym. Haircut. Pack...etc
Honestly has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Yep.
Who else is in the room with you?
No one, I'm by myself just hangin' out
How is your hair right now?
Crazy, I let it dry when I got out of the shower
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?
Fuck. No.
What did you do today?
Went shopping, walked my dog, that's it pretty much.
Did you speak to your mother today?
Sure did. I showed her the pretty bathing suit I bought!
Is it easy to make you cry?
YES...UGHHHHH I HATE ITTTT.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
No, I haven't... I don't think so anyways. Maybe Sam or Megan but that's it.
Do you take walks often?
I walk my dog every single day <3
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Nikki.
Who was the last person you talked to last night before you fell asleep?
That is a secretttt :)
Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
No, I would kill people that called me in the middle of the night.
Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Not a best friend, but a lot of really amazing good friends.
Is your bedroom window open?
No.
What a weird freaking way to end this survey thing! Hmmm, so weird.
I'm tired. Must sleep, I think. That way, tomorrow I can be productive.
Monday, July 20, 2009
CAN'T.STOP.LISTENING.
I listened to this song for the first time last night and although it sounded really familiar, I'm sure I haven't heard it anywhere before.
Anyways, I'M OBSESSED.
There is something in the melody and the words and her voice that I can't figure it out, but it gives me butterflies.
Anyways, I'M OBSESSED.
There is something in the melody and the words and her voice that I can't figure it out, but it gives me butterflies.
You're a boy and I'm a girl
THE UNCOMFORTABLE SURVEY.
(Lets see if you can get through it. If not; you're too scared about your past)
- How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? 1
- Have you ever thought you're going to marry the person you were with? Yes
- Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Yes
- Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yes
- Are you happier single or in a relationship? I am learning to be happy single. It's definitely not the end of the world like I once thought it was.
- Have you ever been cheated on? If I have, that person hasn't confessed.
- Have you ever had your heart broken? In the heat of the moment, it felt like it, but in the long run, no.
- Have you ever broken someone's heart? I hope not.
- Talk to any of your ex's? Yep
- Think any of your ex's feel the same way about you the way they did when you were dating? Yep. Ugh.
- Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? I think I'm a good girlfriend. I have flaws and I can get on people's nerves but that comes with the territory.
- Have you dated people who were not good to you? No, I've dated people who have had moments of weakness but overall, they were great.
- Have you been in an abusive relationship? No. Eff that.
- Have you dated someone older then you? Yes
- Dated someone younger then you? Yes
- Do you regret anything that you have or haven't done with a boyfriend or girlfriend? No regrets... there are certain things that I ponder or I might have been MORE happy if they went a certain way but I'm still alive and happy, so there is nothing that I really want to take back.
- Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? That's an open ended question. I think the majority of the world with good intentions, deserves a second chance. But if you live life with the intent to harm another person be it physically, mentally or emotionally...sometimes, your realization that you want a do over comes too late...and FUCK YOU.
- Believe in love at first sight? Nope, just lust. How can you base love on a glance?
- Ever dated two people at once? No.
- Ever been given an Engagement ring? No, just a promise ring.
- Do you have something to say to any of your ex's? Not really.
- Ever stolen someone’s boyfriend or girlfriend? Nope
- Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? I've thought they were cute but I've never developed hard feelings.
- Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? If you've never had your heart broken or experienced a breakup with someone that you truly loved, then you can't possibly begin to understand the feeling. It's worse than it sounds.
LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Jessica Nicole Miller
Birth date: May 24 1988
Current Location: Home sweet home...aka under my parents roof
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Dark brown with random purpley/pink in it.
LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your fears: Dying or getting old before I've done the things I want to do. Living life alone, ladybugs, the future...
Your weakness: Slurpees and that half smile that a guy gives you... drool.
Your perfect pizza: ham, pineapple, green peppers, mushrooms.
Goal you'd like to achieve: Step foot on every continent.
LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your thoughts first waking up: "Where the fuck is a clock so I can figure out the time?"
Your best physical feature: My... I don't know damn it.
Your bedtime: lately... between 3 and 6am, before it was around 1am
Your most missed memory: Junior High...ALL OF IT
LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or group dates: Group dates
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Eh, I don't really care.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: Neither. Fuck. Ew.
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: Yes.
Cuss: Way too much. It gets me in trouble.
Take a shower: Every night usually.
Like school: I enjoyed school for the most part.
Do you believe in yourself: To an extent.
Think you're a health freak: I wish.
LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: Nope.
Eaten Sushi: Nope
Gone skating: No haha
Dyed your hair: Yea.
LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: Yes
Gotten beaten up: No.
Changed who you were to fit in: Probably, when I was a lot younger.
LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
Age your hoping to be married: To be honest, not really. I'm more or less looking for someone to love. If marriage plays a part, so be it.
LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: I don't notice eyes. green, brown, blue, it's whatever.
Best hair color: Darker hair... brown
Short or long hair: I like short for the most part...shaved heads make me drool but on occasion, I find myself being STUPIDLY attracted to a guy with long hair and I can't figure it out.
LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: This survey, obviously
1 HOUR AGO: Getting home from the mall
1 WEEK AGO: Nothing... walking my dog and showering haha
1 MONTH AGO: Getting ready for FORKS, WA!!! <3
1 YEAR AGO: Living with Alex, working my butt off
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I FEEL: like I should walk my dog, shower and put my laundry away...and pack
I HATE: that time of the month, not having a job, not being in TX with Sam RIGHT NOW
I HIDE: my feelings... A LOT, especially the ones that make me vulnerable.
I NEED: to cuddle up with someone and watch an awesome movie!
AND THERE YOU HAVE IT FOLKS... my boredom
(Lets see if you can get through it. If not; you're too scared about your past)
- How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? 1
- Have you ever thought you're going to marry the person you were with? Yes
- Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Yes
- Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yes
- Are you happier single or in a relationship? I am learning to be happy single. It's definitely not the end of the world like I once thought it was.
- Have you ever been cheated on? If I have, that person hasn't confessed.
- Have you ever had your heart broken? In the heat of the moment, it felt like it, but in the long run, no.
- Have you ever broken someone's heart? I hope not.
- Talk to any of your ex's? Yep
- Think any of your ex's feel the same way about you the way they did when you were dating? Yep. Ugh.
- Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? I think I'm a good girlfriend. I have flaws and I can get on people's nerves but that comes with the territory.
- Have you dated people who were not good to you? No, I've dated people who have had moments of weakness but overall, they were great.
- Have you been in an abusive relationship? No. Eff that.
- Have you dated someone older then you? Yes
- Dated someone younger then you? Yes
- Do you regret anything that you have or haven't done with a boyfriend or girlfriend? No regrets... there are certain things that I ponder or I might have been MORE happy if they went a certain way but I'm still alive and happy, so there is nothing that I really want to take back.
- Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? That's an open ended question. I think the majority of the world with good intentions, deserves a second chance. But if you live life with the intent to harm another person be it physically, mentally or emotionally...sometimes, your realization that you want a do over comes too late...and FUCK YOU.
- Believe in love at first sight? Nope, just lust. How can you base love on a glance?
- Ever dated two people at once? No.
- Ever been given an Engagement ring? No, just a promise ring.
- Do you have something to say to any of your ex's? Not really.
- Ever stolen someone’s boyfriend or girlfriend? Nope
- Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend? I've thought they were cute but I've never developed hard feelings.
- Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? If you've never had your heart broken or experienced a breakup with someone that you truly loved, then you can't possibly begin to understand the feeling. It's worse than it sounds.
LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Jessica Nicole Miller
Birth date: May 24 1988
Current Location: Home sweet home...aka under my parents roof
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Dark brown with random purpley/pink in it.
LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your fears: Dying or getting old before I've done the things I want to do. Living life alone, ladybugs, the future...
Your weakness: Slurpees and that half smile that a guy gives you... drool.
Your perfect pizza: ham, pineapple, green peppers, mushrooms.
Goal you'd like to achieve: Step foot on every continent.
LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your thoughts first waking up: "Where the fuck is a clock so I can figure out the time?"
Your best physical feature: My... I don't know damn it.
Your bedtime: lately... between 3 and 6am, before it was around 1am
Your most missed memory: Junior High...ALL OF IT
LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or group dates: Group dates
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Eh, I don't really care.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: Neither. Fuck. Ew.
LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: Yes.
Cuss: Way too much. It gets me in trouble.
Take a shower: Every night usually.
Like school: I enjoyed school for the most part.
Do you believe in yourself: To an extent.
Think you're a health freak: I wish.
LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: Nope.
Eaten Sushi: Nope
Gone skating: No haha
Dyed your hair: Yea.
LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: Yes
Gotten beaten up: No.
Changed who you were to fit in: Probably, when I was a lot younger.
LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
Age your hoping to be married: To be honest, not really. I'm more or less looking for someone to love. If marriage plays a part, so be it.
LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: I don't notice eyes. green, brown, blue, it's whatever.
Best hair color: Darker hair... brown
Short or long hair: I like short for the most part...shaved heads make me drool but on occasion, I find myself being STUPIDLY attracted to a guy with long hair and I can't figure it out.
LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: This survey, obviously
1 HOUR AGO: Getting home from the mall
1 WEEK AGO: Nothing... walking my dog and showering haha
1 MONTH AGO: Getting ready for FORKS, WA!!! <3
1 YEAR AGO: Living with Alex, working my butt off
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I FEEL: like I should walk my dog, shower and put my laundry away...and pack
I HATE: that time of the month, not having a job, not being in TX with Sam RIGHT NOW
I HIDE: my feelings... A LOT, especially the ones that make me vulnerable.
I NEED: to cuddle up with someone and watch an awesome movie!
AND THERE YOU HAVE IT FOLKS... my boredom
Cold Case File #4937
There is a gangster ghost living in my bathroom...
You know when you get out of the shower and it's all steamy and you can write things in the mirror? Wellllll, when I got out of the shower there was a big huge "MONEY" sign that was previously drawn into the mirror when it was steamy. WTF, I'm the only person who uses that bathroom and I never stopped to think about drawing some gangster shit in my bathroom mirror... sooo yea, AWKWARD. I like to draw hearts and shit but what girl doesn't???
Help me solve this mystery.
:)
You know when you get out of the shower and it's all steamy and you can write things in the mirror? Wellllll, when I got out of the shower there was a big huge "MONEY" sign that was previously drawn into the mirror when it was steamy. WTF, I'm the only person who uses that bathroom and I never stopped to think about drawing some gangster shit in my bathroom mirror... sooo yea, AWKWARD. I like to draw hearts and shit but what girl doesn't???
Help me solve this mystery.
:)
Thursday, July 16, 2009
La-la-la-listen up!
I really dislike you. I'm not gonna lie. And I'm pretty sick of your shit. So you better not look in my direction or say anything that might be directed to me at TwiCon, or else you're probably going to see me be the biggest bitch of your life. Kthx, bed time now.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Take Me To The Magic Of The Moment
STAMPEDE POSTTTTTTT
So I went to the Calgary Stampede on Thursday and Friday and Saturday. Basically, the Stampede is a MASSIVE outdoor show all set in a country/western theme. There is a HUGE midway, a child's midway, a building where all the big expensive concerts take place, a few other stages and then things like chuckwagon races and the bull riding and all that fun stuff. They also have beer gardens and casino's for anyone wanting to get trashed.
I basically just think of Stampede as one big shit show! It's everyone's excuse that they are ALLOWED to act like complete and total fucking morons for 10 days. I want to remind them that...NO, NO THEY ARE NOT!
Thursday's night adventure down to the grounds was so-so. It was pouring rain all night so we were confined to be inside. Considering the Stampede is an outdoor show, you could see how that would pose problems. There are lots of buildings, but the fun can usually be found outside. We ended up at the casino for a large part of the night. I had a couple drinks, played a couple games, just hung around. All in all, it wasn't that interesting of an evening.
Pictures? Sure!
I was going to talk about the Stampede more in depth but I've given up.
Moving on... I'm not gonna lie, I started this blog a week ago, how sad is that? I'm going camping in like.... 3 hours and I'm not packed, I haven't gone to the grocery store and my entire life is BALHAAHHAHAHAHBLBBLBLHA! I give up, Nikki is going to end my life.
Hiyercutemmmkthxbai!
I WANT TO BE WITH MEGAN RIGHT NOW...recreating the Forks epicness. I'm not going to lie, I'm seriously wondering WHAT will top that vacation??? I honestly am not too sure at this point.
Oh, also...I BOUGHT MY PLANE TICKET TO TEXASSSSSSSSSSS! 12 days in the blistering heat surrounded by bugs and other creepy, crawly things. JOYJOYJOYJOYJOYSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAM
IMSOEXCITEDDANCEDANCEDANCE!!!
I get back from camping, then I have just enough time to pack and FLY AWAY!
Why am I drinking warm diet pepsi right now? I'll tell you why, we have no bottles of water in this house and I refuse to drink tap water. Therefore, I'm stuck with warm DP.
I like being single.
I MIGHT want to find a southern gentlemen, we'll see how convincing Sam is.
I'll settle for an astronaut when I go to NASA, no big deal.
I'm hungry... carrots? I've eaten way too many carrots since Forks...STEP OFF!
I want to get another TATTOO in TEXAS!!!!!! Ideas??? The place that I want tattooed which is the side of my foot, most people won't tattoo it. It angers me, but whatever, I want it.
Nikki and I have 100 dollars worth of alcohol for two nights. It's kind of pathetic. We've got 40oz of Vodka, about 20 coolers and 26oz of Malibu... add the lime juice and diet 7-Up and it's a partyyyyyyy! It's a good thing our food only cost us like... 20 bucks haha.
I've come to accept the fact that 2500 people are attending TwiCon and no matter how much I want to, I'm not going to end up liking every one of those 2500 people. It's whatever...
I have so much american change...damn it
I laugh at how random my blogs are. I seriously just write down whatever pops into the front of my head. Like right now for instance, I want to smoke and listen to Lynyrd Skynyrd. I'm so redneck...WTF???
I really want to move to the states...when? I don't know. SOONIHOPE!
I feel bad for those who were injured or lost loved ones in the hotel bombings in Indonesia. I'm not 100%, but I'm pretty sure my Opa is from Jakarta which is where the bombings took place. Sad times.
I guess I should end this post and go switch my laundry... BUTBUTBUTBUTBUTIDONTWANNAAAAAWHINEWHINEWHINE.
I feel like posting some ballads:
So I went to the Calgary Stampede on Thursday and Friday and Saturday. Basically, the Stampede is a MASSIVE outdoor show all set in a country/western theme. There is a HUGE midway, a child's midway, a building where all the big expensive concerts take place, a few other stages and then things like chuckwagon races and the bull riding and all that fun stuff. They also have beer gardens and casino's for anyone wanting to get trashed.
I basically just think of Stampede as one big shit show! It's everyone's excuse that they are ALLOWED to act like complete and total fucking morons for 10 days. I want to remind them that...NO, NO THEY ARE NOT!
Thursday's night adventure down to the grounds was so-so. It was pouring rain all night so we were confined to be inside. Considering the Stampede is an outdoor show, you could see how that would pose problems. There are lots of buildings, but the fun can usually be found outside. We ended up at the casino for a large part of the night. I had a couple drinks, played a couple games, just hung around. All in all, it wasn't that interesting of an evening.
Pictures? Sure!
I was going to talk about the Stampede more in depth but I've given up.
Moving on... I'm not gonna lie, I started this blog a week ago, how sad is that? I'm going camping in like.... 3 hours and I'm not packed, I haven't gone to the grocery store and my entire life is BALHAAHHAHAHAHBLBBLBLHA! I give up, Nikki is going to end my life.
Hiyercutemmmkthxbai!
I WANT TO BE WITH MEGAN RIGHT NOW...recreating the Forks epicness. I'm not going to lie, I'm seriously wondering WHAT will top that vacation??? I honestly am not too sure at this point.
Oh, also...I BOUGHT MY PLANE TICKET TO TEXASSSSSSSSSSS! 12 days in the blistering heat surrounded by bugs and other creepy, crawly things. JOYJOYJOYJOYJOYSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAMSAM
IMSOEXCITEDDANCEDANCEDANCE!!!
I get back from camping, then I have just enough time to pack and FLY AWAY!
Why am I drinking warm diet pepsi right now? I'll tell you why, we have no bottles of water in this house and I refuse to drink tap water. Therefore, I'm stuck with warm DP.
I like being single.
I MIGHT want to find a southern gentlemen, we'll see how convincing Sam is.
I'll settle for an astronaut when I go to NASA, no big deal.
I'm hungry... carrots? I've eaten way too many carrots since Forks...STEP OFF!
I want to get another TATTOO in TEXAS!!!!!! Ideas??? The place that I want tattooed which is the side of my foot, most people won't tattoo it. It angers me, but whatever, I want it.
Nikki and I have 100 dollars worth of alcohol for two nights. It's kind of pathetic. We've got 40oz of Vodka, about 20 coolers and 26oz of Malibu... add the lime juice and diet 7-Up and it's a partyyyyyyy! It's a good thing our food only cost us like... 20 bucks haha.
I've come to accept the fact that 2500 people are attending TwiCon and no matter how much I want to, I'm not going to end up liking every one of those 2500 people. It's whatever...
I have so much american change...damn it
I laugh at how random my blogs are. I seriously just write down whatever pops into the front of my head. Like right now for instance, I want to smoke and listen to Lynyrd Skynyrd. I'm so redneck...WTF???
I really want to move to the states...when? I don't know. SOONIHOPE!
I feel bad for those who were injured or lost loved ones in the hotel bombings in Indonesia. I'm not 100%, but I'm pretty sure my Opa is from Jakarta which is where the bombings took place. Sad times.
I guess I should end this post and go switch my laundry... BUTBUTBUTBUTBUTIDONTWANNAAAAAWHINEWHINEWHINE.
I feel like posting some ballads:
Friday, July 10, 2009
Pfft, side ponytail fo sho!!!
IT'S BILLY JOEL DANCE PARTY DAY!
Cheesy 80's music vids and me dancing along ENSUE!
I'm not even kidding you. I've totally left my browser open all day and I've been STUCK on Billy Joel's YouTube page, it's pretty fuckin' sweet.
Aside from that...
Last night I didn't get to sleep till 4:51am...I know, wtf was I doing up that late? The answer is: EVERYTHING. Who doesn't want to watch Fast Times at Ridgemont High at 3am? Plus smoking, surfing the web and eating also happened in that time as well. I woke up at 10 in the freaking morning. Why? Because my mom is a lunatic and she told me - quote un quote - "Jessica Miller, if you don't clean your room, I will go in with a garbage bag and start throwing shit out! As long as you live under my house, you will keep a tidy living space." No joke, that's what she said. Although, I've gotten the garbage bag threat for years now...still, I cleaned anyways so I didn't have to hear my wonderful mother yell anymore. She is pretty wonderful I must say. She is buying my plane ticket to Texas, what more can I ask for?
OMFG, I'm going to Texas. It actually JUST registered in my head today. I mean, I've been to Texas before, but I stayed in a hotel room and did nothing. Now I get to see what Texas is all about! Guns and tractors and mechanical bulls! Sam is taking me to the bar and to NASA.... I must repeat...SAM IS TAKING ME TO NASA. I'm totally going to like...bring my Armageddon dvd and scoop up some rock sand shit from NASA and put it in my case...because, lets face it, SPACE - fucking cool and Armageddon is the sweetest movie ever! Anyone that knows me, knows that I can watch that movie over and over again and never tire of it. So yea, TEXAS, I spent all day saying to myself "am I fucking insane?" Spiders and snakes and other things that I can't even pronounce and handle. I swear to the heavens, I see myself finding a scorpion, walking up, kicking it and then having it get stuck to my foot and stinging me and I die...DEAD, KAPUT. No one said I had to be smart to go. And I mean, I'm pretty smart, I wear a coat when it's below freezing, I know where to buy a bear whistle from for when I go to the mountains, but HELLO...I'm not Texas smart - not at all. I'm going to accidently walk on someone else's property and get shot. We'll see what happens. If you see a blog post on August 5th, you know I've made it outta there alive.
Ummm, I'm wearing my 3 dollar FLOGGING MOLLY tee right now. I took my dog for a walk in it, did a little 80's dancing in it, and now, it's just chilln' I LOVE THIS SHIRT. *nods*
I just put a clear coat on my nails
Megan's shit surrounds me...seriously. It's messed up. I can see a giant picture story thing that she drew/painted for me in Forks...along with 2 paintins, a cd, a birthday card, a letter and a random note thing. I'm also surrounded by Cam Gigandet and Ryan Reynolds. Can life get any better?
This is random but I'll throw it out there anyways. Throughout the whole "race to the U.S. election," it was made clear, that most of the world had "democratic" point of views when it came to the U.S., or just overall favoured Obama. That's fine, he's a good guy, I liked what he had to say and to be honest, it doesn't phase me since I'm not living in America. What gets me is that the media potrayed most of the U.S. as democratic as well and I mean, obviously they did something right if Obama won. Yet, the demographics that they gave when it came to age/race/location/sex blah blah blah, suggested that my friends in America would be pro Obama, yet almost everyone I talk to is a Republican. Some are even die hard Republican's at that. I'M SO CONFUSED PEOPLE. HOW CAN I LIVE IN YOUR COUNTRY IF I DON'T UNDERSTAND???
Moving on, help me understand.
I think I've watched 9 episodes of CSI, CSI:NY or CSI:Miami today. KIDDING, but channel 43 has been on all day today and that's all that has been playing in my background.
I'm being told I fail via facebook because I don't watch the Office. I don't watch half the shows that are popular. I'm sorry. =(. I kinda wanna watch Lost though. I watched a YouTube tribute video to a couple from the show and it intrigued me. The video was the song "GOODBYE MY ALMOST LOVER." It's kind of popular I suppose. I've loved it for quite a while. Here is the video...I picked a fanmade Twilight vid with the song because I honestly think the song would work great in New Moon.
GOODBYE MY ALMOST LOVER
GOODBYE MY HOPELESS DREAM
I'M TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT YOU
CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME BE?
I WANT TO SEE A DEAR JOHN TRAILER. Argh. I've been waiting for so long... I think Channing Tatum will do fine as John Tyree.
Christmas music is on my television. "that's the jingle bell rockkkkk!"
For some reason, I spend an entire day writing a blog. I just leave the tab open and randomly add shit all day. I think I started this one like over an hour and a half ago.
Now I'm listening to Elton John, but Billy is still first in my life today...don't worry!
I strongly dislike this person who NEVER blogs...she really annoys me.
Oops, time to go to the Stampede...must end this lovely post.
I was going to post shit loads of Billy Joel music BUT you can't embed his YT vids. MONORAIL!
Whatever, just listen to WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE...
Cheesy 80's music vids and me dancing along ENSUE!
I'm not even kidding you. I've totally left my browser open all day and I've been STUCK on Billy Joel's YouTube page, it's pretty fuckin' sweet.
Aside from that...
Last night I didn't get to sleep till 4:51am...I know, wtf was I doing up that late? The answer is: EVERYTHING. Who doesn't want to watch Fast Times at Ridgemont High at 3am? Plus smoking, surfing the web and eating also happened in that time as well. I woke up at 10 in the freaking morning. Why? Because my mom is a lunatic and she told me - quote un quote - "Jessica Miller, if you don't clean your room, I will go in with a garbage bag and start throwing shit out! As long as you live under my house, you will keep a tidy living space." No joke, that's what she said. Although, I've gotten the garbage bag threat for years now...still, I cleaned anyways so I didn't have to hear my wonderful mother yell anymore. She is pretty wonderful I must say. She is buying my plane ticket to Texas, what more can I ask for?
OMFG, I'm going to Texas. It actually JUST registered in my head today. I mean, I've been to Texas before, but I stayed in a hotel room and did nothing. Now I get to see what Texas is all about! Guns and tractors and mechanical bulls! Sam is taking me to the bar and to NASA.... I must repeat...SAM IS TAKING ME TO NASA. I'm totally going to like...bring my Armageddon dvd and scoop up some rock sand shit from NASA and put it in my case...because, lets face it, SPACE - fucking cool and Armageddon is the sweetest movie ever! Anyone that knows me, knows that I can watch that movie over and over again and never tire of it. So yea, TEXAS, I spent all day saying to myself "am I fucking insane?" Spiders and snakes and other things that I can't even pronounce and handle. I swear to the heavens, I see myself finding a scorpion, walking up, kicking it and then having it get stuck to my foot and stinging me and I die...DEAD, KAPUT. No one said I had to be smart to go. And I mean, I'm pretty smart, I wear a coat when it's below freezing, I know where to buy a bear whistle from for when I go to the mountains, but HELLO...I'm not Texas smart - not at all. I'm going to accidently walk on someone else's property and get shot. We'll see what happens. If you see a blog post on August 5th, you know I've made it outta there alive.
Ummm, I'm wearing my 3 dollar FLOGGING MOLLY tee right now. I took my dog for a walk in it, did a little 80's dancing in it, and now, it's just chilln' I LOVE THIS SHIRT. *nods*
I just put a clear coat on my nails
Megan's shit surrounds me...seriously. It's messed up. I can see a giant picture story thing that she drew/painted for me in Forks...along with 2 paintins, a cd, a birthday card, a letter and a random note thing. I'm also surrounded by Cam Gigandet and Ryan Reynolds. Can life get any better?
This is random but I'll throw it out there anyways. Throughout the whole "race to the U.S. election," it was made clear, that most of the world had "democratic" point of views when it came to the U.S., or just overall favoured Obama. That's fine, he's a good guy, I liked what he had to say and to be honest, it doesn't phase me since I'm not living in America. What gets me is that the media potrayed most of the U.S. as democratic as well and I mean, obviously they did something right if Obama won. Yet, the demographics that they gave when it came to age/race/location/sex blah blah blah, suggested that my friends in America would be pro Obama, yet almost everyone I talk to is a Republican. Some are even die hard Republican's at that. I'M SO CONFUSED PEOPLE. HOW CAN I LIVE IN YOUR COUNTRY IF I DON'T UNDERSTAND???
Moving on, help me understand.
I think I've watched 9 episodes of CSI, CSI:NY or CSI:Miami today. KIDDING, but channel 43 has been on all day today and that's all that has been playing in my background.
I'm being told I fail via facebook because I don't watch the Office. I don't watch half the shows that are popular. I'm sorry. =(. I kinda wanna watch Lost though. I watched a YouTube tribute video to a couple from the show and it intrigued me. The video was the song "GOODBYE MY ALMOST LOVER." It's kind of popular I suppose. I've loved it for quite a while. Here is the video...I picked a fanmade Twilight vid with the song because I honestly think the song would work great in New Moon.
GOODBYE MY ALMOST LOVER
GOODBYE MY HOPELESS DREAM
I'M TRYING NOT TO THINK ABOUT YOU
CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME BE?
I WANT TO SEE A DEAR JOHN TRAILER. Argh. I've been waiting for so long... I think Channing Tatum will do fine as John Tyree.
Christmas music is on my television. "that's the jingle bell rockkkkk!"
For some reason, I spend an entire day writing a blog. I just leave the tab open and randomly add shit all day. I think I started this one like over an hour and a half ago.
Now I'm listening to Elton John, but Billy is still first in my life today...don't worry!
I strongly dislike this person who NEVER blogs...she really annoys me.
Oops, time to go to the Stampede...must end this lovely post.
I was going to post shit loads of Billy Joel music BUT you can't embed his YT vids. MONORAIL!
Whatever, just listen to WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE...
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Squeeze, squeeze, squeeze!
My dog is snoring and it's the cutest thing of my life! I just want to squeeze her because I love her so freaking much!
I want to clean my room and work out today... WANT being the key word. I'm guessing my lazy self will just continue being lazy though. DAMN IT
I want to clean my room and work out today... WANT being the key word. I'm guessing my lazy self will just continue being lazy though. DAMN IT
Friday, July 3, 2009
I'm Starting With Me!
First of all, be prepared for the longest blog of your life.
This blog will probably be private since I don't want to beat around the bush.
First of all, I just got back from Forks and I must say that I had one of the best times of my entire life. Seriously going in the record books! There aren't enough happy words in the english language to explain how wonderfully happy that trip left me feeling.
First of all: I love Megan with my entire life. Even the part of me that hates her, still wants to cuddle up to her and call her a cunt in a kind, soft voice. Seriously, my life in Forks would have sucked the big one if she wasn't there.
Second of all: Mill Creek Bar owns my life. Do I need to say anymore?
and ummmm.... NAH-HA-HAY-VEY. Yum drool. Yum drool. Yum drool.
Basically the entire trip consisted of eating, sleeping and being drunk...and hey, I can't complain.
It caught me off guard that I would have so much fun, because usually, on vacations it's go, go, go for me. I thought that I would be bored but suprisingly, I wish I were still in Forks, laying in the musty, spider infested motel room. I just want to be back there, hanging out.
You can clearly tell that Thursday night was epic... that is all!
ON ANOTHER NOTE:
Ummm, SAN DIEGO WITH MEGAN IN SEPTEMBER 2009! I had planned for months and months to use one of my days in SoCal to visit Megan, however, it was just decided that I would switch my plane ticket early and stay with her for an extra week! Wonderful, wonderful news. I hope that all goes smoothly because I think that would be an awesome time.
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So I'm supposed to leave for the craziness that is TwiCon very, very soon. However, my poor, jobless ass, doesn't even have a plane ticket yet. DAMN IT. It's stressing me out. I've been moody and bitchy and probably gaining weight since I'm eating the most random shit ever out of boredom. I'm hoping everything will come through. There is NOTHING more at this point, that I want, than to hang out with Sam for two weeks straight. It's been 9 months in the making. I feel like we've nursed a pregnancy together, hell we kind of have!...It's about damn time we get to stay up till all hours of the night and have a face to face chat instead of just on Skype. I would be extremely happy if I got the chance to see Megan and heck, even Cori too. My entire life wants to hang out with my best friends and do WHATEVER...drink, shop, watch movies, gossip, pig out on junk, etc... I don't want to rely on hanging out with them for 4 days under the pressures of TwiCon, that's why I'm going early. A couple of people have said "wow lucky" and even "isn't that a little long," but in all honesty, what is 14 days out of 365? Not a whole lot. In the countless hours that I've spent talking to Sam, I haven't got sick of her, or wanted to fight with her... she pretty much knows the person I am and HOPEFULLY, I her. She knows I'm stubborn, slightly rude, picky, bitchy, you name it...all of my bad qualities have been "out there" for quite some time. I figured if she had issues, I'd know it by now. I'm hoping I'll be the proud owner of a plane ticket by the end of the week. That way I can figure out what to do for everything else! So much to plan and I'm not nearly ready.
I might be going camping next weekend (17th)...this would mean that I'd have to prepared and packed quite soon! That reminds me, where the heck is my passport? Better find that if I want to go anywhere at all! Sheesh.
So, I just want to put it out there:
This blog, these are my thoughts. Yes, it is public, anyone can read it. I just want to make people aware... if you DO read my blog, I'm not writing this for you. That might sound rude, but it's true. There may be thoughts that I put "OUT THERE" or whatever, but at the end of the day, this is what I do to document how I feel. Sure, I could keep a private journal, but at the same time, sometimes I want people to know my thoughts. There are days I get on the computer and I'm a huge bitch to people, than I realize it later on but I'm too selfish and stubborn to say "hey, look, sorry I was being rude earlier!" Instead, I can just take to my blog and talk about my bad day so that maybe they might stumble here and realize "oh, she was just not having a good day!" My blog is rude, vulgar... it's out there. It's me; that's all. There is a reason that I don't link it to my facebook or my myspace. I don't want my mother to see this, or people that I might have met in the Twilight fandom who I'm not on a personal level with. If you read it and comment, that's fine, I encourage it, I love to hear what people think. If I've offended you, that sucks, you can let me know...but please understand, I did not WAKE UP, think about how I wanted to specifically talk about YOU and try to offend you. If I'm talking about a group of people and you take offense, that's your doing, I didn't put you in that group. There are about 4 people that I don't like and it's public knowledge. I don't give a shit...if they read my blog, well sucks to be them. They should not be that interested in my life anyways. Other than those 4 individuals (and my ex-employer), I don't blog about disliking anyone else. I blog specifically about individuals I like!!!...ramble, ramble, ramble. Basically... just don't take offense to what I say. I'm not going to stop swearing, or ranting about things/people that I don't like.
MOVING ON....
I watched Season 1 of True Blood! Took me less than 24 hours. I can't quite give a review yet because I don't know how I feel. There was no dislike or hate, that's for sure, but I also didn't go 'OMFG, MORE MORE MORE.' I found myself NEEDING to watch the next episode, but not because I fell in love with the characters or the story, but just because I was CURIOUS. It captivated me but not in the usual way. For example, I HATED the long freaking intro that went on forever, yet I never bothered fast forwarding through it because I really enjoyed the twisted song.
"I don't know what you've done to me, but I know this much is true; I wanna do bad things with you!"
I've always wanted to go to Louisiana...and ever since I drove through it in February and found the Alligator heads at the road side convenience store and saw the giant chipped, white wooden crosses off the highway, I've wanted to go MORE! No offense to anyone who might live there and could be reading this (Court), but LA seems SO FUCKED UP... like so southern and out of MY personal "normal." It seems like the epitome of the south to me...not to mention movies and novels have given it such a distinct personality. It's so mysterious and edgy and in a lot of cases, dangerous and scary. I want to go...NOW!
Is it sad that I'm eating 5cent candies as we speak?
I only have 2 smokes left...looks like I'm taking the dog for a walk tomorrow.
Speaking of dog, I love taking her for car rides! However, I am NOT...ever taking her for a walk at 7pm at night again. I took her tonight and there were so many rabid dog and dog owners outside. They were psycho...barking and growling and being a pain in my ass... I like walking my dog at noon or midnight...no one is ever outside!
I'll end this and I promise to pick back up on blogging, look for another long post tomorrow, I have lots to talk about but sleep calls to me!
I'll end it off with a Michael Jackson vid. Yes, he passed away and yes, CNN has been on my TV all day. Although he wasn't my idol and I don't know what he may or may not have done in his life, I can't help but be moved by his memorial service. It does not matter who he was or what he may have done...what matters is what he achieved. Bringing millions together, inspirational lyrics, I can't complain!
This is probably my fave MJ song..
here are the lyrics... you can't tell me that these lyrics don't make you reflect and take a second to think! It's WONDERFUL!
"Man In The Mirror"
I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .
As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)
I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?
A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.
HAPPY TUESDAY!
PS... I really dislike you and your crazy ways!
This blog will probably be private since I don't want to beat around the bush.
First of all, I just got back from Forks and I must say that I had one of the best times of my entire life. Seriously going in the record books! There aren't enough happy words in the english language to explain how wonderfully happy that trip left me feeling.
First of all: I love Megan with my entire life. Even the part of me that hates her, still wants to cuddle up to her and call her a cunt in a kind, soft voice. Seriously, my life in Forks would have sucked the big one if she wasn't there.
Second of all: Mill Creek Bar owns my life. Do I need to say anymore?
and ummmm.... NAH-HA-HAY-VEY. Yum drool. Yum drool. Yum drool.
Basically the entire trip consisted of eating, sleeping and being drunk...and hey, I can't complain.
It caught me off guard that I would have so much fun, because usually, on vacations it's go, go, go for me. I thought that I would be bored but suprisingly, I wish I were still in Forks, laying in the musty, spider infested motel room. I just want to be back there, hanging out.
You can clearly tell that Thursday night was epic... that is all!
ON ANOTHER NOTE:
Ummm, SAN DIEGO WITH MEGAN IN SEPTEMBER 2009! I had planned for months and months to use one of my days in SoCal to visit Megan, however, it was just decided that I would switch my plane ticket early and stay with her for an extra week! Wonderful, wonderful news. I hope that all goes smoothly because I think that would be an awesome time.
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So I'm supposed to leave for the craziness that is TwiCon very, very soon. However, my poor, jobless ass, doesn't even have a plane ticket yet. DAMN IT. It's stressing me out. I've been moody and bitchy and probably gaining weight since I'm eating the most random shit ever out of boredom. I'm hoping everything will come through. There is NOTHING more at this point, that I want, than to hang out with Sam for two weeks straight. It's been 9 months in the making. I feel like we've nursed a pregnancy together, hell we kind of have!...It's about damn time we get to stay up till all hours of the night and have a face to face chat instead of just on Skype. I would be extremely happy if I got the chance to see Megan and heck, even Cori too. My entire life wants to hang out with my best friends and do WHATEVER...drink, shop, watch movies, gossip, pig out on junk, etc... I don't want to rely on hanging out with them for 4 days under the pressures of TwiCon, that's why I'm going early. A couple of people have said "wow lucky" and even "isn't that a little long," but in all honesty, what is 14 days out of 365? Not a whole lot. In the countless hours that I've spent talking to Sam, I haven't got sick of her, or wanted to fight with her... she pretty much knows the person I am and HOPEFULLY, I her. She knows I'm stubborn, slightly rude, picky, bitchy, you name it...all of my bad qualities have been "out there" for quite some time. I figured if she had issues, I'd know it by now. I'm hoping I'll be the proud owner of a plane ticket by the end of the week. That way I can figure out what to do for everything else! So much to plan and I'm not nearly ready.
I might be going camping next weekend (17th)...this would mean that I'd have to prepared and packed quite soon! That reminds me, where the heck is my passport? Better find that if I want to go anywhere at all! Sheesh.
So, I just want to put it out there:
This blog, these are my thoughts. Yes, it is public, anyone can read it. I just want to make people aware... if you DO read my blog, I'm not writing this for you. That might sound rude, but it's true. There may be thoughts that I put "OUT THERE" or whatever, but at the end of the day, this is what I do to document how I feel. Sure, I could keep a private journal, but at the same time, sometimes I want people to know my thoughts. There are days I get on the computer and I'm a huge bitch to people, than I realize it later on but I'm too selfish and stubborn to say "hey, look, sorry I was being rude earlier!" Instead, I can just take to my blog and talk about my bad day so that maybe they might stumble here and realize "oh, she was just not having a good day!" My blog is rude, vulgar... it's out there. It's me; that's all. There is a reason that I don't link it to my facebook or my myspace. I don't want my mother to see this, or people that I might have met in the Twilight fandom who I'm not on a personal level with. If you read it and comment, that's fine, I encourage it, I love to hear what people think. If I've offended you, that sucks, you can let me know...but please understand, I did not WAKE UP, think about how I wanted to specifically talk about YOU and try to offend you. If I'm talking about a group of people and you take offense, that's your doing, I didn't put you in that group. There are about 4 people that I don't like and it's public knowledge. I don't give a shit...if they read my blog, well sucks to be them. They should not be that interested in my life anyways. Other than those 4 individuals (and my ex-employer), I don't blog about disliking anyone else. I blog specifically about individuals I like!!!...ramble, ramble, ramble. Basically... just don't take offense to what I say. I'm not going to stop swearing, or ranting about things/people that I don't like.
MOVING ON....
I watched Season 1 of True Blood! Took me less than 24 hours. I can't quite give a review yet because I don't know how I feel. There was no dislike or hate, that's for sure, but I also didn't go 'OMFG, MORE MORE MORE.' I found myself NEEDING to watch the next episode, but not because I fell in love with the characters or the story, but just because I was CURIOUS. It captivated me but not in the usual way. For example, I HATED the long freaking intro that went on forever, yet I never bothered fast forwarding through it because I really enjoyed the twisted song.
"I don't know what you've done to me, but I know this much is true; I wanna do bad things with you!"
I've always wanted to go to Louisiana...and ever since I drove through it in February and found the Alligator heads at the road side convenience store and saw the giant chipped, white wooden crosses off the highway, I've wanted to go MORE! No offense to anyone who might live there and could be reading this (Court), but LA seems SO FUCKED UP... like so southern and out of MY personal "normal." It seems like the epitome of the south to me...not to mention movies and novels have given it such a distinct personality. It's so mysterious and edgy and in a lot of cases, dangerous and scary. I want to go...NOW!
Is it sad that I'm eating 5cent candies as we speak?
I only have 2 smokes left...looks like I'm taking the dog for a walk tomorrow.
Speaking of dog, I love taking her for car rides! However, I am NOT...ever taking her for a walk at 7pm at night again. I took her tonight and there were so many rabid dog and dog owners outside. They were psycho...barking and growling and being a pain in my ass... I like walking my dog at noon or midnight...no one is ever outside!
I'll end this and I promise to pick back up on blogging, look for another long post tomorrow, I have lots to talk about but sleep calls to me!
I'll end it off with a Michael Jackson vid. Yes, he passed away and yes, CNN has been on my TV all day. Although he wasn't my idol and I don't know what he may or may not have done in his life, I can't help but be moved by his memorial service. It does not matter who he was or what he may have done...what matters is what he achieved. Bringing millions together, inspirational lyrics, I can't complain!
This is probably my fave MJ song..
here are the lyrics... you can't tell me that these lyrics don't make you reflect and take a second to think! It's WONDERFUL!
"Man In The Mirror"
I'm Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It's Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .
As I, Turn Up The Collar On My
Favourite Winter Coat
This Wind Is Blowin' My Mind
I See The Kids In The Street,
With Not Enough To Eat
Who Am I, To Be Blind?
Pretending Not To See
Their Needs
A Summer's Disregard,
A Broken Bottle Top
And A One Man's Soul
They Follow Each Other On
The Wind Ya' Know
'Cause They Got Nowhere
To Go
That's Why I Want You To
Know
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself, And
Then Make A Change)
(Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah)
I've Been A Victim Of A Selfish
Kind Of Love
It's Time That I Realize
That There Are Some With No
Home, Not A Nickel To Loan
Could It Be Really Me,
Pretending That They're Not
Alone?
A Willow Deeply Scarred,
Somebody's Broken Heart
And A Washed-Out Dream
(Washed-Out Dream)
They Follow The Pattern Of
The Wind, Ya' See
Cause They Got No Place
To Be
That's Why I'm Starting With
Me
(Starting With Me!)
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Ooh!)
And No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror
(Ooh!)
I'm Asking Him To Change His
Ways
(Change His Ways-Ooh!)
And No Message Could've
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make That . . .)
Change!
I'm Starting With The Man In
The Mirror,
(Man In The Mirror-Oh
Yeah!)
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make The Change)
(You Gotta Get It Right, While
You Got The Time)
('Cause When You Close Your
Heart)
You Can't Close Your . . .Your
Mind!
(Then You Close Your . . .
Mind!)
That Man, That Man, That
Man, That Man
With That Man In The Mirror
(Man In The Mirror, Oh Yeah!)
That Man, That Man, That Man
I'm Asking Him To Change
His Ways
(Better Change!)
You Know . . .That Man
No Message Could Have
Been Any Clearer
If You Wanna Make The World
A Better Place
(If You Wanna Make The
World A Better Place)
Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change
(Take A Look At Yourself And
Then Make A Change)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Oh Yeah!)
Gonna Feel Real Good Now!
Yeah Yeah! Yeah Yeah!
Yeah Yeah!
Na Na Na, Na Na Na, Na Na,
Na Nah
(Ooooh . . .)
Oh No, No No . . .
I'm Gonna Make A Change
It's Gonna Feel Real Good!
Come On!
(Change . . .)
Just Lift Yourself
You Know
You've Got To Stop It.
Yourself!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
I've Got To Make That Change,
Today!
Hoo!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Got To
You Got To Not Let Yourself . . .
Brother . . .
Hoo!
(Yeah!-Make That Change!)
You Know-I've Got To Get
That Man, That Man . . .
(Man In The Mirror)
You've Got To
You've Got To Move! Come
On! Come On!
You Got To . . .
Stand Up! Stand Up!
Stand Up!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Stand Up And Lift
Yourself, Now!
(Man In The Mirror)
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
Aaow!
(Yeah-Make That Change)
Gonna Make That Change . . .
Come On!
(Man In The Mirror)
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know It!
You Know . . .
(Change . . .)
Make That Change.
HAPPY TUESDAY!
PS... I really dislike you and your crazy ways!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Fuck Werk! /end life
1.Where is the person you like right now? I like someone??? Wut? Maybe he is in Tacoma, WA... then I can creep him tomorrow. KIDDING.
2.Last time you consumed alcohol? Saturday night/Sunday morning.
3.What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Sleeping, twas fun!
4.What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Dying of boredom... feck, damn, shit.
5.What are you doing this weekend? Monumental fun times with Megan.... and Ape when she isn't shooting SSIF...EEEEEEEEEEEE *angry squee of excitement*
6.How do you feel about the person who texted you last? I haven't texted in months, so I couldn't tell you. I probably love them though, unless her name starts with a K... then *death stare*
7.Have you ever been around someone who was high? Ummm, yus!
8.Do you like your life as of now? Sure, why not... I'm jobless, bored, lazy... wait, do I sound bitter right now? Kidding, it's whatevs.
9.Last thing you purchased? Ummm, alcohol and smokes...
10.Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are? WORK. FUCK WORK... WORK FUCK WORK... WORK IS GHEY, OH SO GHEY, FUCK BEING GHEY, FUCK WORK. WORK FUCK WORK. Does that explain it?
11.Three words to explain why you last threw up? Alcohol. Drunk. Drive.
12.How's your heart lately? Is this a literal or metaphorical question? Good on about accounts I suppose. *ponders*
13.Where did your last hug take place? My bed!
14.Who was the last person to hold your hand? Alexander
15.Who are all the texts from in your phone? I omit this question. ASSHOLES
16.Did you have a good birthday this year? MOST. EPIC. BIRTHDAY. EVERRRRRRRR. I plan on doing the same thing every year for the rest of my life...or until it's socially unacceptable to look like a hot mess.
17.What did you do? LAS VEGASSSSSSS, YO! Dane Cook + Alcohol + omfgluffluffluff
18.Are you tired right now? Only because I'm bored as hell.
19.How would you feel if your best friend turned out to be gay? I would die of laughter... We already get called lesbians, that would just fuel the fire.
20.Do you chew on your straws? Yes, usually.
21.Have you ever been called a tease? Yes, a couple times, very angry too!
22.Last myspace message from? Eff MySpace, probably some band saying "yo, check us outtttt mang."
23.Do you have curly hair? Straight for the most part. It's got that annoying "wave" thing going on. Death.
24.Who's house were you at last? Mine, before that, Ryan's.
25.What time did you wake up this morning? 9ish...
26.Why did you wake up at that time? Work, why else?
27.What color is your hair? Is nappy a colour?
28.Is there anyone who doesnt like you because of something you didn't do? Of course... assholes.
29.As of today, do you like anyone? No, not really. I think peepz are hot... and friendly and.... yuhh, but I'm not like "omfg, lets go date!"
30.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? NEVER! I think 30ish hours is probably the longest.
31.How many posters do u have? Like... a million, no joke.
32.Last thing you ate? Bread, I'm hungry.
33.Last person you cried over? Alex probably.
34.Do you cry easily? Eff, yes =(
35.Do you have any siblings? One brudder.
36.What should you be doing right now? My job... eh, fuck it.
37.Are you a heavy sleeper? When I'm tired, definitely.
38.What's the last cutest message in your inbox? Pfft, um, I don't know. Maybe April from facebook "I bought you a goodie!" Ummm...YUS!
39.What was the last thing you said? "STAMPEDE, FUCK YA!"
40.When was the last time you drove? I dunno, like a year ago haha.
41.Beer or Liquor? Liquor please. Beer works.
42.Do you have any piercings or tattoos? 10 piercings, 1 tattoo!
43.What are you listening to? I want to be listening to Oasis, unfortunately, all I hear is ladders clanging and static.
44.Do you think its bad to have sex at your age? Definitely, NOT.
45.Where is your boyfriend/girlfriend at the moment? No boyfriend for me, I smell funny (kidding).
46.Were you happy when you woke up today? Yes, I was like... "LAST DAY OF WORK... WOOT, so done with assholish bosses!"
47.Who was the last person you ate with? Alex and my mother.
48.What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Vodka and orange juice. Monorail.
49.Do you like tattoos and piercings? Yup! I want moreeeeee.
50.Are you in a good mood? No, not really. My boss just called me, keep in mind that today is my last day...and yelled at me, for no reason other than something that I was apparently doing wrong when he specifically asked me to do what it was that I was apparently doing wrong.
51.Do you want to have kids? Yes, three please.
52.Do you smoke weed regularly? Drugs are bad, folks.
53.Miss anyone? My Uncle James... people that I've lost touch with. =(
54.Have you ever watched a movie drunk? Yes, it puts me to sleep.
55.Has anyone ever told you they were in love with you? Yes.
56.Do you believe in true love? Definitely.
57.Do you like to wear sweatpants? Sweatpants own! So comf.
58.Are you wearing them right now? No, I wear'd jeans.
59.Have you ever stolen a sign from a street? YES! So many signs.
60.Are you playing hard to get right now? Hahahaha, ummmm no.
61.Do you miss your past? Everyday of my life.
62.Are you proud of the person you've become? I'm content with who I've become.
63.Would you ever want to swim with the sharks? Are these sharks trained not to eat me? FISH ARE FRIENDS, NOT FOOD... Jessica is fwend, not food!
64.Has someone smacked your butt in the past week? Yes, ewww, he was so gross... fuck. ANGER!
65.Did you speak to your father today? Yep, he drove me to werk!
66.How good is Coca-Cola? Gross! I hate coke... BARF.
67.When was the last time you cleaned your room? this afternoon
68.Whats the last bone you broke? No broken bones... yuck.
69.Do you drink bottled water? Yes, bottled water FTW, I hate tap water.
70.Have you lost friends in the past years? Unfortunately, yes.
71.What are you doing tonight? Work. Pack. Sleep... in that order.
72.Whens the last time you cried? Last week was pretty rough.
73.When was the last time you hugged someone? This morning.
74.Who was the last person that made you laugh? Nikki.
75.Do you dance in the car? Ask Megan, I am the ULTIMATE car dancer. BREAK IT DOWN.
76.How did you get your last bruise? I dunno, probably doing something DUMB AS FUCK.
77.Whats your favorite season? Spring <3
78.What is your favorite color? Purple!!
79.Do you think you have made a difference in anyones life? Yes, I hope so or else what am I living for?
80.How is your hair? Straight, nappy, ehhhh.
81.Latest you stayed up in the past week? 8am... kill me.
82.Has your mom bought anything in the past 24 hour? Luncheon meat, wonderful mother that she is!
83.Whats the connection between you and the last person you texted? Cell phone questions, fuck my life!
84.Have you ever slept over the opposite sex's house? Yes... haha
85.Last time you ate? 3453 hours ago, I'm starving! No, more like 5 hours ago, I'm still hungry though.
86.Do you hate the last girl you were talking to? Nope!
87.Do you hate the last boy you were talking to on the phone? Definitely not!
2.Last time you consumed alcohol? Saturday night/Sunday morning.
3.What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? Sleeping, twas fun!
4.What were you doing 30 minutes ago? Dying of boredom... feck, damn, shit.
5.What are you doing this weekend? Monumental fun times with Megan.... and Ape when she isn't shooting SSIF...EEEEEEEEEEEE *angry squee of excitement*
6.How do you feel about the person who texted you last? I haven't texted in months, so I couldn't tell you. I probably love them though, unless her name starts with a K... then *death stare*
7.Have you ever been around someone who was high? Ummm, yus!
8.Do you like your life as of now? Sure, why not... I'm jobless, bored, lazy... wait, do I sound bitter right now? Kidding, it's whatevs.
9.Last thing you purchased? Ummm, alcohol and smokes...
10.Where are you right now, and how do you feel about where you are? WORK. FUCK WORK... WORK FUCK WORK... WORK IS GHEY, OH SO GHEY, FUCK BEING GHEY, FUCK WORK. WORK FUCK WORK. Does that explain it?
11.Three words to explain why you last threw up? Alcohol. Drunk. Drive.
12.How's your heart lately? Is this a literal or metaphorical question? Good on about accounts I suppose. *ponders*
13.Where did your last hug take place? My bed!
14.Who was the last person to hold your hand? Alexander
15.Who are all the texts from in your phone? I omit this question. ASSHOLES
16.Did you have a good birthday this year? MOST. EPIC. BIRTHDAY. EVERRRRRRRR. I plan on doing the same thing every year for the rest of my life...or until it's socially unacceptable to look like a hot mess.
17.What did you do? LAS VEGASSSSSSS, YO! Dane Cook + Alcohol + omfgluffluffluff
18.Are you tired right now? Only because I'm bored as hell.
19.How would you feel if your best friend turned out to be gay? I would die of laughter... We already get called lesbians, that would just fuel the fire.
20.Do you chew on your straws? Yes, usually.
21.Have you ever been called a tease? Yes, a couple times, very angry too!
22.Last myspace message from? Eff MySpace, probably some band saying "yo, check us outtttt mang."
23.Do you have curly hair? Straight for the most part. It's got that annoying "wave" thing going on. Death.
24.Who's house were you at last? Mine, before that, Ryan's.
25.What time did you wake up this morning? 9ish...
26.Why did you wake up at that time? Work, why else?
27.What color is your hair? Is nappy a colour?
28.Is there anyone who doesnt like you because of something you didn't do? Of course... assholes.
29.As of today, do you like anyone? No, not really. I think peepz are hot... and friendly and.... yuhh, but I'm not like "omfg, lets go date!"
30.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight? NEVER! I think 30ish hours is probably the longest.
31.How many posters do u have? Like... a million, no joke.
32.Last thing you ate? Bread, I'm hungry.
33.Last person you cried over? Alex probably.
34.Do you cry easily? Eff, yes =(
35.Do you have any siblings? One brudder.
36.What should you be doing right now? My job... eh, fuck it.
37.Are you a heavy sleeper? When I'm tired, definitely.
38.What's the last cutest message in your inbox? Pfft, um, I don't know. Maybe April from facebook "I bought you a goodie!" Ummm...YUS!
39.What was the last thing you said? "STAMPEDE, FUCK YA!"
40.When was the last time you drove? I dunno, like a year ago haha.
41.Beer or Liquor? Liquor please. Beer works.
42.Do you have any piercings or tattoos? 10 piercings, 1 tattoo!
43.What are you listening to? I want to be listening to Oasis, unfortunately, all I hear is ladders clanging and static.
44.Do you think its bad to have sex at your age? Definitely, NOT.
45.Where is your boyfriend/girlfriend at the moment? No boyfriend for me, I smell funny (kidding).
46.Were you happy when you woke up today? Yes, I was like... "LAST DAY OF WORK... WOOT, so done with assholish bosses!"
47.Who was the last person you ate with? Alex and my mother.
48.What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Vodka and orange juice. Monorail.
49.Do you like tattoos and piercings? Yup! I want moreeeeee.
50.Are you in a good mood? No, not really. My boss just called me, keep in mind that today is my last day...and yelled at me, for no reason other than something that I was apparently doing wrong when he specifically asked me to do what it was that I was apparently doing wrong.
51.Do you want to have kids? Yes, three please.
52.Do you smoke weed regularly? Drugs are bad, folks.
53.Miss anyone? My Uncle James... people that I've lost touch with. =(
54.Have you ever watched a movie drunk? Yes, it puts me to sleep.
55.Has anyone ever told you they were in love with you? Yes.
56.Do you believe in true love? Definitely.
57.Do you like to wear sweatpants? Sweatpants own! So comf.
58.Are you wearing them right now? No, I wear'd jeans.
59.Have you ever stolen a sign from a street? YES! So many signs.
60.Are you playing hard to get right now? Hahahaha, ummmm no.
61.Do you miss your past? Everyday of my life.
62.Are you proud of the person you've become? I'm content with who I've become.
63.Would you ever want to swim with the sharks? Are these sharks trained not to eat me? FISH ARE FRIENDS, NOT FOOD... Jessica is fwend, not food!
64.Has someone smacked your butt in the past week? Yes, ewww, he was so gross... fuck. ANGER!
65.Did you speak to your father today? Yep, he drove me to werk!
66.How good is Coca-Cola? Gross! I hate coke... BARF.
67.When was the last time you cleaned your room? this afternoon
68.Whats the last bone you broke? No broken bones... yuck.
69.Do you drink bottled water? Yes, bottled water FTW, I hate tap water.
70.Have you lost friends in the past years? Unfortunately, yes.
71.What are you doing tonight? Work. Pack. Sleep... in that order.
72.Whens the last time you cried? Last week was pretty rough.
73.When was the last time you hugged someone? This morning.
74.Who was the last person that made you laugh? Nikki.
75.Do you dance in the car? Ask Megan, I am the ULTIMATE car dancer. BREAK IT DOWN.
76.How did you get your last bruise? I dunno, probably doing something DUMB AS FUCK.
77.Whats your favorite season? Spring <3
78.What is your favorite color? Purple!!
79.Do you think you have made a difference in anyones life? Yes, I hope so or else what am I living for?
80.How is your hair? Straight, nappy, ehhhh.
81.Latest you stayed up in the past week? 8am... kill me.
82.Has your mom bought anything in the past 24 hour? Luncheon meat, wonderful mother that she is!
83.Whats the connection between you and the last person you texted? Cell phone questions, fuck my life!
84.Have you ever slept over the opposite sex's house? Yes... haha
85.Last time you ate? 3453 hours ago, I'm starving! No, more like 5 hours ago, I'm still hungry though.
86.Do you hate the last girl you were talking to? Nope!
87.Do you hate the last boy you were talking to on the phone? Definitely not!
Hakuna Matata!
I had a weird dream... again
This time I had met a boy that I really, really liked and he liked me just the same, but before we could start dating, I told him he had to be approved by my best friend. When I woke up it left me baffled, but you know what, it's probably true. Nikki is the reason that Alex and I started dating and over the years, they ended up getting hostile with eachother for so many reasons and now it's to the point where they hardly will be around eachother. I hang out with Nikki every day of my life, so my next boyfriend has to get along with her. For real though, I don't think either one of us are ever dating again...or so it seems. Nikki has been out of a relationship for a year and half and I have had plenty of times to start new relationships, but it's whatever. I think we both know that by starting something new, we'd be giving lots up. We've been best friends for so long, we've forgotten what it's like to function without eachother. We're not the kind of best friends who just have that title either. We've gotten so close that we absent mindedly pick at eachother, we don't go out on the town if the other person isn't going and heck, we've even slept buck naked next to eachother on random nights that we've come home too drunk to find clothes. It's a good friendship! We are at the point where it's just assumed that it's "Nikki and Jessica." Over the years if there has been a time or two that we've went out without the other, our friends are like "omfg, where is Nikki, is she sick, are you guys fighting, what's up?" It's kind of hilarious but I realize that we've also sectioned ourselves off way more than is probably healthy for us. I couldn't imagine if we got into a life altering fight that made us hate eachother. We both would literally have no one. We have mutual friends, but at the end of the day, they're just friends... you can't call them good, good friends that you can confide in and shite!
Anyways, weird dream.
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I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking happy. I want to be a rebel and tell my company to shove their shitty management up their asses and go take a course on what it means to be personable, but I want the good reference too much.
People are funny. I wish I could elaborate on a public blog, but alas, there may be eyes reading this that will report back.
The UK is still the first thing on my mind. I haven't been researching too much lately because I've been bombarded by other stupid, random shit.
COUGHCOUGHCOUGH/RANTRANTRANT
FUCK, I just want to be with MEGAN and APRIL and Sam is a COW for not coming to Forks with me...and when I see her in July I'm going to dry hump for like 28 minutes so that she understands that I hate her life for not seeing me in June!
I'm so raunchy...it's wonderful.
WTF, I still have 2304890249580238423048 hours left of this stupid job.
/endlife
I enjoy writing randomly, to myself, I just wish my FWENDS, who said they were going to blog so that I knew all about their life, would continue to blog. It's like one new post once a week, that's a paragraph long. And then I say "why don't you write." And they reply with "umm, cause I don't got nothing to write about!?!?!" HOLLA, please, explain to me what the fuck all of this is about...NOTHING! I just sit in front of the computer and wait to see what forms. Yesterday I was going to write about how I burnt myself with a smoke a couple days back and when I looked down yesterday, it was randomly bleeding.
I could also talk about how I spent two days in bed and that makes me a failure...oh no, I forgot, I made dinner last night. Fajitas - fucking delicious. I don't understand my obsession with peppers, but I enjoy it.
What else can I talk about... Cake
I want cake
I want ice cream
I want ice cream cake!
I took my dog for a car ride yesterday. She almost jumped out of the fucking window. Idiot.
I can't believe I'm freaking going to WASHINGTON tomorrow... less than 24 hours and I will have landed! Why do I have to be stuck at work all day, so sad!
Okay, end post here.
This time I had met a boy that I really, really liked and he liked me just the same, but before we could start dating, I told him he had to be approved by my best friend. When I woke up it left me baffled, but you know what, it's probably true. Nikki is the reason that Alex and I started dating and over the years, they ended up getting hostile with eachother for so many reasons and now it's to the point where they hardly will be around eachother. I hang out with Nikki every day of my life, so my next boyfriend has to get along with her. For real though, I don't think either one of us are ever dating again...or so it seems. Nikki has been out of a relationship for a year and half and I have had plenty of times to start new relationships, but it's whatever. I think we both know that by starting something new, we'd be giving lots up. We've been best friends for so long, we've forgotten what it's like to function without eachother. We're not the kind of best friends who just have that title either. We've gotten so close that we absent mindedly pick at eachother, we don't go out on the town if the other person isn't going and heck, we've even slept buck naked next to eachother on random nights that we've come home too drunk to find clothes. It's a good friendship! We are at the point where it's just assumed that it's "Nikki and Jessica." Over the years if there has been a time or two that we've went out without the other, our friends are like "omfg, where is Nikki, is she sick, are you guys fighting, what's up?" It's kind of hilarious but I realize that we've also sectioned ourselves off way more than is probably healthy for us. I couldn't imagine if we got into a life altering fight that made us hate eachother. We both would literally have no one. We have mutual friends, but at the end of the day, they're just friends... you can't call them good, good friends that you can confide in and shite!
Anyways, weird dream.
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I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo freaking happy. I want to be a rebel and tell my company to shove their shitty management up their asses and go take a course on what it means to be personable, but I want the good reference too much.
People are funny. I wish I could elaborate on a public blog, but alas, there may be eyes reading this that will report back.
The UK is still the first thing on my mind. I haven't been researching too much lately because I've been bombarded by other stupid, random shit.
COUGHCOUGHCOUGH/RANTRANTRANT
FUCK, I just want to be with MEGAN and APRIL and Sam is a COW for not coming to Forks with me...and when I see her in July I'm going to dry hump for like 28 minutes so that she understands that I hate her life for not seeing me in June!
I'm so raunchy...it's wonderful.
WTF, I still have 2304890249580238423048 hours left of this stupid job.
/endlife
I enjoy writing randomly, to myself, I just wish my FWENDS, who said they were going to blog so that I knew all about their life, would continue to blog. It's like one new post once a week, that's a paragraph long. And then I say "why don't you write." And they reply with "umm, cause I don't got nothing to write about!?!?!" HOLLA, please, explain to me what the fuck all of this is about...NOTHING! I just sit in front of the computer and wait to see what forms. Yesterday I was going to write about how I burnt myself with a smoke a couple days back and when I looked down yesterday, it was randomly bleeding.
I could also talk about how I spent two days in bed and that makes me a failure...oh no, I forgot, I made dinner last night. Fajitas - fucking delicious. I don't understand my obsession with peppers, but I enjoy it.
What else can I talk about... Cake
I want cake
I want ice cream
I want ice cream cake!
I took my dog for a car ride yesterday. She almost jumped out of the fucking window. Idiot.
I can't believe I'm freaking going to WASHINGTON tomorrow... less than 24 hours and I will have landed! Why do I have to be stuck at work all day, so sad!
Okay, end post here.
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